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Joyful rose, it has been 10 months since Leo and 7 months since mc passed away, and i can say that i am in the same boat as you are. Funnily enough like you i thought i was getting better with this loss and yesterday it all hit me again as if it happend just yesterday i didnt cry this time it just that my mood was so low and dark just remembering those two times at the vet how it all played out and thinking about what was said to me, trying to think how healthy they were and suddenly their health going down hill and that decision i made for both of them. Same like you my vets didnt run any blood work tests and just told me for leo he needed an expensive operation and would be the same or worse off after it and for MC they said she was on her way out and nothing could be done.
I know i think i made the best decision at the time, but at the same time i think, something else could have been done as the vets could have been wrong especially when i read that some vets have a list of things they will try to treat, this i never knew which still makes me wonder at times.
Also if a vet is willing to treat my cats for more longer, does this mean my cats will keep suffering for a longer period of time waiting to do more tests etc and we cant tell that they are suffering because meds are not working, changing more medications which isnt heling or will they be ok and is the vet doing it just for more money to keep my cats alive longer because i am in denial or is the vet assisting and trying to save a life and truly sees hope or know that my cats has a chance to survive? But in the back of my mind i also think would they have been suffering more than needed just for my sake to keep trying or maybe they would have been ok if i saw a different vet or tried something else. I wish i knew and god only knows this answer. I wish i knew the answer. Its not easy to end ones life .
I know i think i made the best decision at the time, but at the same time i think, something else could have been done as the vets could have been wrong especially when i read that some vets have a list of things they will try to treat, this i never knew which still makes me wonder at times.
Also if a vet is willing to treat my cats for more longer, does this mean my cats will keep suffering for a longer period of time waiting to do more tests etc and we cant tell that they are suffering because meds are not working, changing more medications which isnt heling or will they be ok and is the vet doing it just for more money to keep my cats alive longer because i am in denial or is the vet assisting and trying to save a life and truly sees hope or know that my cats has a chance to survive? But in the back of my mind i also think would they have been suffering more than needed just for my sake to keep trying or maybe they would have been ok if i saw a different vet or tried something else. I wish i knew and god only knows this answer. I wish i knew the answer. Its not easy to end ones life .