You are the only one who can get you out of this dark spot you're in, all the help and encouragement in the world isn't going to help you unless you make use of it. It has to be your decision. Yeah it's hard to move forward especially if part of it means letting go, but people here will be with you every step of the way. It doesn't mean forget about her and move on, she will always be there with you, just stop focusing on what you lost and look at what you gained. What did she teach you? What did you learn about yourself during your time with her? That is what you should focus on instead of how much it hurts.