Sammie's Not Doing So Well..... :'(

[JamesCalifornia]

~ When I was attempting to save an ill cat I steamed a few chicken thighs and let the water cool. The smell used to perk him up ! Then I skimmed the fat from the water and he would lick it all up. He also ate the skin. I think doing this kept him around a while longer. Eyedropper feeding also helped.
Don't be surprised if your little baby goes to sleep and flies away into the next life. Animals often do that .

 

[Antonio65]

Im not sure what our friday appt will be if she stays this way. I just laid here & cried thinking about it. She just seems so sad. Her Dr said to her, " let me see those eyes, beautiful." She said she looks a little depressed & a little anoyed to be there. .. .. .I guess im feeling like we're on a downsloap of this crappy rollercoaster, and im not sure where its going next.

I had this thought several times when the end was approaching.
Is it today? Will it be tomorrow?
Or, thanks God I didn't do it, today she's much better!
It's devastating, I know.
We're all been through this, we're all here to support you!

 

[angels mommy]

K kalico , Thank you for the info. Im so sorry you are going through this too. None of it is easy on any level. .....or fair!
Sammie has a large mass on her liver. Its carsanoma, & agressive, so thats whats causing the fluid. We tried lasix, just to see if it would help, but unfortunately it did not, so she is no longer on it. The pred is ok to give her, because she only gets1/2 of one & I also have to give her a 1/4 cypro. I just wrap them in a peice of pill pocket, just big enough to mold around the pills, so it goes down good. I also started using the pill gun, to make sure it gets far enough in, & its smaller than my finger. I usually syringe her a little water after to swallow.
Unfortunately, this is an agressive cancer, & Im blessed that I still have her. Its a matter of days at this point, so unfortunately nothing else is really going to help.
I wish you all the best with your girl, & im glad you have gotten months with her. That is a blessing.

JamesCalifornia , Thank you. Im not sure that she would eat any broth, etc.. she has never wanted any "people food." I have tried offering her some in the past. A little peice of chicken, or fish, & she wouldn't eat it. I certainly can try though, maybe even mixing some in w/ her food. Maybe she will eat better that way too.

@jcat , Thank you. Thanks for always being around with support.

Antonio65 , Thank you. Yes, that is exactly what its like, & what ive been feeling rigjt now! Thanks for your support.

Thank you all, for all of your support!

Kelly

 

[artiemom]

Kelly, just sending you more ((hugs)).. and love...

We are all here for you..

I not posting, because I really do not know what to say, but I am here~~ constantly reading your updates...
Know that I am here.. right next to you..

love...

 

[AbbysMom]

I not posting, because I really do not know what to say,

Lots of

 

[kalico]

Please know you're not alone and we all share your sadness.

Sammie is lucky to have you. When I think about my girl passing on soon, I think about her "earning her wings" and flying away in her sleep (I think I read that quote here) and having the best, most comfortable life in the big cat tree in the sky. I know how hard this is. Thoughts are with you <3.

 

[Antonio65]

When I first joined TCS, I was in desperate need of support, because I was counting the days and I was crying everyday.
At that time there was nothing else I could do to save my sweet Lola, nonetheless I was here often, just to vent my mind and to talk to someone who could understand.
The level of support and encouragement I received from all people here was unimaginable to me.
Even after...

I know the importance of being supported in these moments.

 

[angels mommy]

Thanks you guys. You're making me cry.
Yes, this is a really special place. We have the most amazing, wonderful, supportive, understanding, loving like minded people here, & I truly love you all!!
We are all lucky to have found this site & each other.
Thats why, even after loosing Angel, I came back. I wanted to help share any knowledge I had gained here, that may help others, as well as I would miss you guys!
@Anne , Thank you for creating this space, & sometimes sancruary for us all!
I tell people about it all the time.

I just rewarmed what was left of Sammies breakfast, & got her to eat some more!
Only about a tbs left I think . We tried a Sheba she hadnt had. The chicken & tuna. She liked it, so yay. Those little snap apart pks have been great right now, not having to open, & sometimes waste the rest of a can.

 

[angels mommy]

These, they are 1.3 oz each.
They are a real wet, smooth pate, so that helps too

 

[DreamerRose]

Sheba is very easy on their stomach, too. I feed it to Mingo whenever he's been vomiting a lot. Sending hugs your way.

 

[mrsgreenjeens]

Kelly, just sending you more ((hugs)).. and love...

We are all here for you..

I not posting, because I really do not know what to say, but I am here~~ constantly reading your updates...
Know that I am here.. right next to you..

love...

Me too. I cry every time I read this thread because it's just so very sad. First Angel, now Sammie . It's just not fair

 

[angels mommy]

Me too. I cry every time I read this thread because it's just so very sad. First Angel, now Sammie . It's just not fair

I know! I really feel that too. At least I'm not in that neighborhood any more! Its just so crazy!
After going through all of this in less than 3 yrs, its going to be a long time before i'm ready again, and even then, im going to be gun-shy. .... Big time! And not before the care credit is paid off, & pet insurance will be bought!

Shes doing ok today as far as food. Ate all of breakfast except about a spoonful. Shes still working on dinner. Has eaten about half of it I think. Of course, only w/ a dose of cypro, & I have to hold the dish for her, but she eats, takes a minute to let it go down, eats a little more, etc.. I guess thats not great if that's the only way she eats & has been mostly under the beds this wk. But still not getting that feeling yet. At least our appt tomorrow should get her through the weekend. Then we'll see how next week goes. I just keep remembering the Dr. Saying she probably wont make it till Christmas, & was a little anemic on Tues.s appt.
Im also worried because I have a very full week next wk.
I hate this! Shes supposed to be my healthy girl!

 

[Antonio65]

I just keep remembering the Dr. Saying she probably wont make it till Christmas, & was a little anemic on Tues.s appt.
Im also worried because I have a very full week next wk.
I hate this! Shes supposed to be my healthy girl!

When the vets say such things I think they lack of compassion and sensitivity. They are being honest, they are trying to get us ready for the unavoidable, but nonetheless I would feel like punching in their face!

When my cat Pallina was at the University hospital at the end of July, and the vets couldn't fix her problem, they were going to discharge her and told me those would have been her last days.
I said, "I'm going to begin my days off from work next week, I will spend my days off in the care of my beloved cat, she'll be fine soon".
The vet answered, "Don't worry, you'll spend your days off withour your cat!"
Well, I was going to punch the vet right between her eyes!
There are softer ways to pass on certain info.

Unfortunately she was right

 

[foxxycat]

Antonio65

 

[angels mommy]

Antonio65 , I understand what you are saying, buy my vet is far from lacking in compassion. She has been the best bet ive ever had. I have been with her for about 8 or so years. Ive been though 2 kitties w/ her now, as well as her being pregnant w/ both her boys, who are now 7 & 3 yrs old.
She is the first to hug me with bad news. She hated telling me the results of the fluid that day, because she saw / knows what I went through w/ Angel. When the lab results came in, she called me from her cell phone, on her families moving day! She said that w/ the relationship we had, she didn't want me to hear it from anyone else. She also said I could text her if I needed anything. On the day she was off, & another vet had to drain Sammie, she wanted me to text her how it went, how much they got out.
I also learned from one of the girls there, that on her moving day when she called me, she had also had to put one of her own kitties down. She was deaf & blind at that point & showing signs of dementia, so she just couldnt put her through a move, where nothing would be famuliar to her, & would be very stressful for her. So after all of that, she still called me herself.
When she said that to me, it was in a compassionate way, but slso trying to be honest & prepare me, because she knows everything ive been through.
So I understand where you are coming from, but its not how she meant it. It was not said in a matter of fact way, but I think more of her tryingbto gently prepare me of how soon it would be, since I had 2 monrhs w/ Angel after his diagnosis.

My head & heart are really wrestling this morning. I still haven't gotten that "its time" feeling. At leat not in a very definate way.
Its really hard, because she can still walk around a little bit, & eats, but not w/ out an appetite stimulant, & me holding her dish 95% of the time. I know shes tired, as she spends most of the time under the beds. Especially this wk. She does have that sad look more now, & it makes me sad.
Last night when she jumped up on her tree, she barely made the top level, & it scared me. Luckily, I was thete to grab her bottom, & help push her up. It was just a little miss, but still. .. ..Then, ladt night before bed, she had gone out to the kitchen. I tjought to use her box, but she was laying on the floor about 3 feet away, like she was resting, on the way there, or knew she was going to have to go, & wanted to be close. I went back to check in her a few minutes later, & she hadnt used it, but was now laying by her water dish. Not even criuching over it, ss shes seen doing when she drinks, but just laying next to it. She wasnt drinking, but may have later. I just wanted to check on her , but didn't bring her back in my room, because she hadnt used her box yet, & may have needed to. So after all that last night, I thought, maybe its time. Shes not comforatable. Shes been on oain meds since last week.. ..
My friend who worked at an animal hospital for 15 yrs, said its not always absolute. Si I just dont know if thats the case here, or what. Im also a little affraid that if something does happen over the weekend, & they are closed, what am I going to do?
She would need to be preserved for cremation, & we dont have any rooom here for that......just all thoughts circling un my head. Her appt. Is today at 5, & im wrestling w/ what to do.
Please, everyone pray that I get clairity today. I also don't want to regret anything.

 

[foxxycat]

angels mommy

I totally understand what you are saying. Unfortunately this is the downward slide from illness that won't get better. I know you are hurting. Just know that I will be thinking about you two today and your vet too. She is a rare vet. I'm so happy you have a compassionate vet for this complex situation.

 

[rubysmama]

I haven't (yet) been in your position, but I'm crying just imagining how you are feeling, and the thoughts going through your head.

I think, especially since you trust your vet, get her honest, professional opinion. And then ask what she would do if Sammie was her cat. And ask her what to do if something were to happen when the vet was closed.

Also ask your parents what they think, since they love Sammie too, and can see how she's doing. Can one of them go to the vet appointment with you today, just in case...

 

[foxxycat]

rubysmama thank you for the post. Thats exactly what I wanted to say but couldn't find the words.

Yes ask the vet. The vet sounds like she's a compassionate person and will do everything she can to help you N Sammie live the best life. Sending you so many hugs. Darn it dust getting in my eyes again.

 

[Antonio65]

Please, everyone pray that I get clairity today. I also don't want to regret anything.

I sent you a PM.

 

[angels mommy]

Thanks you guys, but I know what they'd all say. She doesn't have quality of life anymore. Im the only one, my heart is still holding on because it hurts so much to let her go. Shes just so sad. I think ts probably time. I can usually get her to eat a little bit at least before meds in the morning, incase she wont after, but this morning, shes not interested. Maybe because its f. f. Chkn & beef, & not sheba, but still. She looks so sad. In her tree, just peering down, not even looking at the birds out there.
I just cried all over her, talking to her, & praying for clairity, because I don't want to regret or doubt anything.
Damn it, why do I have to to work today?!
I also start the chiro office today.
Hopefully being away a bit will help give me clairity. Although its already in my head. Its my heart that is struggling.
I have to go grt ready for work, so I can het bk here as soon as I can. Hopefully between 2 & 3.
See.....