Why are you saying you would be a "foster fail"? Quite the contrary Cindy, if you don't mind me calling you by your first name. Your love and devotion for Artie for all those years, through the good times and rough times, never giving up on him nor YOURSELF is a beautiful story. The way I see it, you are the perfect foster parent choice for that kitty. That kitty obviously has caught your attention and heart, otherwise you never would have bothered to mention her in particular. We all know you have the love and understanding from where that little one has come from. One thing I want to say right here, is this would be a "foster" situation, not an "adoption" which would be a commitment. Pray on it Cindy, mull it over in your heart and see how you feel. If you are ready to job in the waters for a "foster", go for it. Who knows, this may lead to the "A" word!! Maybe Artie led you to that ball through his spirit so that you would find it at this time, while you are considering opening up your heart to another kitty who obviously is in need for someone like you. Keep in mind, this would be a "foster" at this point, less scary to look at this that way at this part of the game.