Artie.....part 1

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mazie said:
Why are you saying you would be a "foster fail"? Quite the contrary Cindy, if you don't mind me calling you by your first name. Your love and devotion for Artie for all those years, through the good times and rough times, never giving up on him nor YOURSELF is a beautiful story. The way I see it, you are the perfect foster parent choice for that kitty. That kitty obviously has caught your attention and heart, otherwise you never would have bothered to mention her in particular. We all know you have the love and understanding from where that little one has come from. One thing I want to say right here, is this would be a "foster" situation, not an "adoption" which would be a commitment. Pray on it Cindy, mull it over in your heart and see how you feel. If you are ready to job in the waters for a "foster", go for it. Who knows, this may lead to the "A" word!! Maybe Artie led you to that ball through his spirit so that you would find it at this time, while you are considering opening up your heart to another kitty who obviously is in need for someone like you. Keep in mind, this would be a "foster" at this point, less scary to look at this that way at this part of the game. ;):)
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artiemom said:
Oh, thank you so much... it has been rough.. I promise I will write more.. hopefully soon...

I miss Artie so much.. It just seems that the more I think or write about him, the more I tear up...

I was finally, out of the blue, got my printer working. I finally have several pictures of him around here.. I talk to them daily.. I pat them at least twice a day... good morning, and good night, and sometimes during the day...

I saved a ton of his fur.. I have some on top of his 'box'.. I periodically got over, touch it.. thinking about how soft his fur was, and how good he was...

The other day, something really strange happened.

I have been cleaning diligently around here.. There really is not much evidence of him around.. the stray litter and fur are all gone.. things washed and put away..

The other day, I was Swiffering the great room. I moved the couch; I have done recently done that a few times. Well, all of a sudden an old sponge ball came out from under the couch... very weird...

I may be weird, but I took that as a sign that Artie wanted me to think of him.. not not forget him~~~ not that I ever will..

I picked up that ball, kissed it...and put it where I used to keep all his other sponge balls. I could not bear to part with it...

Anyway, I am trying to move on... still to early to think of re-adopting.. I cannot afford it, plus, emotionally, I am still grieving... I need to get my head together before I can fully devote myself to another kitty... financially, I do not know when that will be...

I have returned to volunteering at the Humane Society/Rescue at PetSmart.

I was a volunteer, as a fill-in, but a year ago, when Artie began getting so sick, I stopped.

I did a couple shifts as a fill-in.. Last week they offered me a permanent shift. It was up to me: if it was too early to commit or not...

I took the shift. It is every other Sunday, the last shift: feeding cleaning, talking to any interested people, evaluating them, having them fill out the adoption forms, letting them see the kitties, and, if time allows, playing with them...

We usually have 5-6 cats... most of them are terrified. We currently have a one which have been surrendered due to sick elderly owners who have moved, cannot take care of them anymore.. so they are really emotionally upset cats...

I am tempted to take one home... she is so terrified.. she is hiding under her bed--6 yrs old.. Her owner had a stroke. Her world shattered, and she is so scared that she is lashing out at everyone....sigh...

but I know I would be foster fail... I know it...

Anyway.. I should go..

I will try to post more about Artie, soon...
I promise...
so many Artie Stories.. I need to remember the good times and not the bad...

Thanks again, for reading this... if you get this far...
love...
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tarasgirl06 said:
"...if you get this far..."!!! I've been starved for news and as I say, praying daily for you both.
You are doing a wonderful thing by volunteering for the cats!!! and it is a great way to be "with cats" in these times. :goldstar::heartshape::hugs:
I had something very similar after one of our beloveds passed. One of her favorite toys appeared front and center, just inside the front door. Of course someone else could have been playing with it. But I don't think so, and I chose to take it as a sign, just as you have. Whether or not we see physical signs, though, they ARE watching over us, without a doubt. :redheartpump::redcat::redheartpump:
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mazie said:
Why are you saying you would be a "foster fail"? Quite the contrary Cindy, if you don't mind me calling you by your first name. Your love and devotion for Artie for all those years, through the good times and rough times, never giving up on him nor YOURSELF is a beautiful story. The way I see it, you are the perfect foster parent choice for that kitty. That kitty obviously has caught your attention and heart, otherwise you never would have bothered to mention her in particular. We all know you have the love and understanding from where that little one has come from. One thing I want to say right here, is this would be a "foster" situation, not an "adoption" which would be a commitment. Pray on it Cindy, mull it over in your heart and see how you feel. If you are ready to job in the waters for a "foster", go for it. Who knows, this may lead to the "A" word!! Maybe Artie led you to that ball through his spirit so that you would find it at this time, while you are considering opening up your heart to another kitty who obviously is in need for someone like you. Keep in mind, this would be a "foster" at this point, less scary to look at this that way at this part of the game. ;):)
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Hi Cindy , I am truly sorry for your loss of your sweet Artie. I do know the pain your heart is feeling at this time. I know as the days go forward , the pain seems to feel more intense. I know that pain all too well. It is heartbreaking. I wish so much that I had some magic words to say , that would ease your pain , even just a little. Just know that Artie loved you so much and would never want to see you so sad. My heart and thoughts are with you always , and with sweet Artie as well!
Please take care!!
 
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artiemom said:
Artie was kept in the CELLAR!! OMG.. I was appalled!
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To Artie you were the light breaking in the darkness of that cellar, you were the light that guided him towards the life and the world, you were the light in each of his days from that moment on. You were the light till his very last moment.
Now he has taken that light with him and he will shine on you. He will guide you in your life and make sure you'll always do the right thing, even when it is time to take care of another kitty in need.

No other cat in the world has had so many friends as Artie did. No other cat in the world will be missed by so many people. No other cat in the world has left their pawprints on so many hearts.

Artie will be the symbol of TCS, forever!

Cindy, we're here for you. We will read more stories as soon as you are ready to share them with us.

It took me some time to reply this thread, it was too heavy for me to come here. I feared I would have cried too much. So I waited.... but I cried all the same.

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Thank You,

OMG, with all you have been going through, I never, ever, expected you to comment on here....

Your PM was more than enough... thank you....

Yes, When I am feeling as if I can write more 'Artie Stories", I will...
Right now, I am still missing him terribly, with my days feeling empty and unfulfilled.

I can talk about him, to others, as long as I do not mention his name... it becomes too raw, when I do... I am just referring to him as: "my cat"... if I say "Artie", I end up crying....

I do not understand this, but, I keep finding his 'balls' all over the place.. Did I forget where he left them? or is it Artie, messaging me, that he is happily playing, wherever he is... Or does he want to give these balls to a 'new' kitty, as a gift from him???
OR is it just him trying to show me that he is still present... and to remember all the fun times we had with the balls: him jumping up for them, batting them, chasing them........

sorry, cannot type anymore.. I am on my 3rd tissue....

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Take it as a sign that he wants you to remember all the wonderful times you shared. All the fun and all the times he did something silly that made you laugh. He's trying to help you heal because he loves you so much. He hates to see you suffer. :hugs:

RIP sweet Artie :rbheart:
 
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