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I’m feeling frustrated and don’t really have many people to talk to. Ive been posting here recently about problems I’ve been having. I hope im not annoying anyone, lol don’t really have many people that I can speak to honestly. Ive learned that speaking my mind can have really ugly consequences so I tend to not speak up anymore.
Last year I left my childhood home because my brother and I kept having issues about the cats and he was feeling frustrated and annoyed with them. This grew into us getting into a silly fight about something not related to the cats, and I moved into my sisters house.
My sister is being kind enough to let me try to pay down my debt. But I already owe 2000$ on a card that I used to help her out. She promised to pay it, but she now sees it as my debt since im not helping out in the house anymore. My nieces boyfriend, and I, were paying the bills while she was at home for a year grieving her husbands passing.
With the money I make, old debt, my car, and the cats, I cant afford my own place. Ive been going to interviews, and have an interview this week. But nothing is changing. Im looking into getting a weekend job for more money.
I sometimes have these ugly feelings that if I didn’t have the cats, I wouldn’t have the responsibility or the expense. It makes me feel so awful to have these feelings.
I posted recently about my sisters new found husband. They married 34 years ago, and thought they had divorced, but didn’t. Shes been talking to him for three weeks, and shes invited him over to stay for three days. Im stressed out because this random guy is staying with us for three days soon.
Every time I think about my next step, I keep my cats in mind. I cant just pack up and head somewhere for the weekend while theres a stranger in the house, because where in the world would I take them? I cant even afford to go anywhere anyway.
This all makes me miss my mother. We used to fight like crazy, but she was always there for me. Ever since shes been gone, I feel like the main support in my life is gone. We were partners and helped each other in decisions. I feel like the past two years ive been trying desperately to climb a ladder that’s not really leading anywhere, and yet I continue scrambling, and stumbling down the ladder.
The only person that ever understood me completely is gone. I feel unstable, as if I don’t have a sure footing around me. My sister been in a nasty mood since she got with her boyfriend, and keeps saying she needs her own life and for people to not bother her. Even though she stayed home living for free for a year. I love my sister. But there are moments I resent her.
Ever since my mother died the anger issues I have always had have intensified. Anyway, ive written enough, I thought I’d add some snap chat pictures of the kittys that i took today, to cheer up this post a little bit…
Im sorry that this post is me just whining and complaining. Lol
Last year I left my childhood home because my brother and I kept having issues about the cats and he was feeling frustrated and annoyed with them. This grew into us getting into a silly fight about something not related to the cats, and I moved into my sisters house.
My sister is being kind enough to let me try to pay down my debt. But I already owe 2000$ on a card that I used to help her out. She promised to pay it, but she now sees it as my debt since im not helping out in the house anymore. My nieces boyfriend, and I, were paying the bills while she was at home for a year grieving her husbands passing.
With the money I make, old debt, my car, and the cats, I cant afford my own place. Ive been going to interviews, and have an interview this week. But nothing is changing. Im looking into getting a weekend job for more money.
I sometimes have these ugly feelings that if I didn’t have the cats, I wouldn’t have the responsibility or the expense. It makes me feel so awful to have these feelings.
I posted recently about my sisters new found husband. They married 34 years ago, and thought they had divorced, but didn’t. Shes been talking to him for three weeks, and shes invited him over to stay for three days. Im stressed out because this random guy is staying with us for three days soon.
Every time I think about my next step, I keep my cats in mind. I cant just pack up and head somewhere for the weekend while theres a stranger in the house, because where in the world would I take them? I cant even afford to go anywhere anyway.
This all makes me miss my mother. We used to fight like crazy, but she was always there for me. Ever since shes been gone, I feel like the main support in my life is gone. We were partners and helped each other in decisions. I feel like the past two years ive been trying desperately to climb a ladder that’s not really leading anywhere, and yet I continue scrambling, and stumbling down the ladder.
The only person that ever understood me completely is gone. I feel unstable, as if I don’t have a sure footing around me. My sister been in a nasty mood since she got with her boyfriend, and keeps saying she needs her own life and for people to not bother her. Even though she stayed home living for free for a year. I love my sister. But there are moments I resent her.
Ever since my mother died the anger issues I have always had have intensified. Anyway, ive written enough, I thought I’d add some snap chat pictures of the kittys that i took today, to cheer up this post a little bit…
Im sorry that this post is me just whining and complaining. Lol
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