Fatigue like that can easily be caused by constant stress and you really should get out of that situation ASAP. I would also suggest looking into renting from someone, you can talk to them beforehand and make sure you find someone who likes Cats and not just tolerates them.Just needed a place to vent like always. sorry to everyone reading my posts.
been applying every day and havent had luck finding a part time job.
i need to figure out a way to start making money soon. its gotten to the point that as soon as my sister or niece complain about anything, even if its not a big deal, i still feel the anger rising inside, and my heart starts to race.
just today, my niece sends me a whiny text that she thinks the cats got food all over the floors she cleaned. in an area of the house that they dont even eat at (didnt even look like her treats). I'm just sick of dealing with her. I spend all day at work with people telling me what to do, i dont need the hassle of someone nagging at me about stupid things. i want to go home and not have to deal with anyone.
its gotten to the point that i dont even bother answering my sister messages anymore, even the friendly ones. i dont want to deal with her or her daughter.
im afraid if i dont get out of here soon, i will end up blowing up the way i did at my brothers house. i have enough with worrying about my health and issues im having. i need peace in my life, and i just feel so tired. im so angry all the time that i get annoyed by my own cat. just the sound of her meowing can get on my nerves.
im so happy at my new job and i dread coming home.
i know things are not that bad at home, and i mostly get along. but i feel so tired. so sick of dealing with other peoples problems.
i also worry that i wont be able to handle two jobs. im not that young anymore, im in my mid 30s and i feel tired all the time. i dont know if its connected to my health issues. just the thought of working 7 days a week makes me feel overwhelmed. but at the same time, i need my space.
im sorry for complaining. i just feel tired, and feel alone. i feel mentally unstable.