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I would be very lucky if somewhere so close to me would be willing to take her home.I respect your mental health concerns and can support you not keeping her. Is there any neighbour or friend or relative that could keep her, if you supply the food etc. Sometimes you need to take care of yourself to take care of others.
Yes, if I broke down after a new loss, I could be not helpful to other cats in need.
After the death of my cat last August, I felt like I didn't even feed my colony, I felt void and useless.
It took me a while to be able to react. A few days after her death, I found several kittens over a few weeks but I remember I was quite unable to do what I know I could have done better. For instance I had to give a newborn kitten to the vet who in turn passed her over to another person who did something wrong and the kitten died a few hours later. If I were in a different mental situation, I would have kept the kitten and she might have survived. It was my fault because I didn't feel ready for such an important task. I feel guilty.
I don't want anything like that to happen again, I want my mind to be ready for an emergency.