Thank you. You expressed your words perfectly and today it was exactly what I needed to hear. This has been such a heartbreaking and very painful journey. It just isn't fair any way you look at it. Not to us or our babies.
M meelasmom It really isn't fair. I feel blessed to have had Daniel for the length of time that I did, some people lose their babies much younger, but I know that no amount of time ever would have felt like enough. I would have wanted him, as I do my remaining four, with me until I am old and grey and on the way out myself. I know that is not physically possible, or realistic, but it doesn't change the wish that I could have had him forever.
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Aliciacat7 I'm sorry for you loss When my first cat had to be put to sleep at almost 21 I swore I would never get another cat, because the pain of losing her was so awful. My parents surprised me with Jack and Daniel, two adorable sweet baby brothers whose mother sadly must have been grabbed by a coyote. They were too young to be away from her and I had to feed them every couple of hours for two weeks, with a syringe. They brought SUCH joy to my life after losing my first cat, and I feel very thankful for that. I still have Jack, who I am desperately worried about since losing Daniel, as well as three others - Furgus, Scooter and Purrsnickitty. They really are helping me through my grief over losing Daniel, but I am sick with worry that one or more of them are also ill and I just don't know it.
It's a bitter sweet relationship, loving a pet. On the one hand, I would never trade the years of love and happiness that I had with my first cat, or Daniel, but I can't help but feel once again, that I would not get another cat. I am heartbroken over Daniel's loss, and dreading the day I lose my remaining furbabies (hopefully many many years from now), and the grief is so hard right now that I don't know if I could willingly put myself through it again. I have to go through it four more times at some point, and I am only barely getting through the loss of Daniel right now.
I am glad that you were able to get two more furbabies - because I know how Jack and Daniel helped that grief feel less oppressive and all consuming for me. I hope your new furbabies do the same for you for many years to come.