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Hello. This is my first post, but I have been lurking around for the past week or so. It will be 1 week tomorrow that I lost my sweet girl...and I am at a complete loss. I've read so many posts, and thought that maybe telling about my Tigger, it might help me to cope or start to feel better...
We have had Tigger since she was 8 weeks old. She would have been 16 this year in June. She was our first pet..before our babies. 4 years ago she was diagnosed with hyperthyroidism. She was so sick, and the pill to help regulate her made her nauseous, so I put the gel in her ear every night. She made her presence known..constantly getting in your lap for a nap, or letting us know she was hungry, or if her water bowl was not full. Even at 3 or 4 in the morning. There for a while, she would only eat canned food. We were up to 4 cans a day (sharing with our other cat, too)...so when we moved 2 years ago...we were excited that she started eating dry food again. Our other cat, Max, had just been diagnosed with diabetes Saturday, March 24th, and he needed to start eating wet food again. We noticed Tigger stopped eating the dry food and went for the canned. We didn't think anything about it until she stopped eating even the canned food. We could entice some tuna, but just a little. We took her to the vet on Wednesday, and our vet called Thursday with the news that her kidneys were shutting down. Our vet always explained there was a delicate balance of keeping the thyroid happy and the kidneys happy. Her creatine level was at a 10, and her BUN a 190. So we were faced with the most gut wrenching decision... and it still haunts me. I am so glad that we spent the rest of the weekend loving on her, and cuddling. They say that they tell you when they are ready to leave. I never wanted to see it, but her eyes were not the same, and she stopped purring when I had her on my lap. The entire weekend I researched all I could about failing kidneys...and she had most of the end stage symptoms. Our family had to say goodbye to the best kitty we've known. Monday will be a full week...and it is so hard for me to not cry every day. I look for her at home, all her familiar napping spots...we have kept her brush with all her hair, and I cannot bring myself to vacume the back of the couches where she slept. We will be picking up her ashes on Wednesday, and I hope that helps. I've lost family members, but I have never felt the physical symptoms of grief before. It literally hurts. My lap is empty. Part of me wants to stay sad, because I don't want to move on without her. So, please tell me that it does get easier.
We have had Tigger since she was 8 weeks old. She would have been 16 this year in June. She was our first pet..before our babies. 4 years ago she was diagnosed with hyperthyroidism. She was so sick, and the pill to help regulate her made her nauseous, so I put the gel in her ear every night. She made her presence known..constantly getting in your lap for a nap, or letting us know she was hungry, or if her water bowl was not full. Even at 3 or 4 in the morning. There for a while, she would only eat canned food. We were up to 4 cans a day (sharing with our other cat, too)...so when we moved 2 years ago...we were excited that she started eating dry food again. Our other cat, Max, had just been diagnosed with diabetes Saturday, March 24th, and he needed to start eating wet food again. We noticed Tigger stopped eating the dry food and went for the canned. We didn't think anything about it until she stopped eating even the canned food. We could entice some tuna, but just a little. We took her to the vet on Wednesday, and our vet called Thursday with the news that her kidneys were shutting down. Our vet always explained there was a delicate balance of keeping the thyroid happy and the kidneys happy. Her creatine level was at a 10, and her BUN a 190. So we were faced with the most gut wrenching decision... and it still haunts me. I am so glad that we spent the rest of the weekend loving on her, and cuddling. They say that they tell you when they are ready to leave. I never wanted to see it, but her eyes were not the same, and she stopped purring when I had her on my lap. The entire weekend I researched all I could about failing kidneys...and she had most of the end stage symptoms. Our family had to say goodbye to the best kitty we've known. Monday will be a full week...and it is so hard for me to not cry every day. I look for her at home, all her familiar napping spots...we have kept her brush with all her hair, and I cannot bring myself to vacume the back of the couches where she slept. We will be picking up her ashes on Wednesday, and I hope that helps. I've lost family members, but I have never felt the physical symptoms of grief before. It literally hurts. My lap is empty. Part of me wants to stay sad, because I don't want to move on without her. So, please tell me that it does get easier.
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