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Hi everyone. This is my first time posting here. I put my only beautiful 16 yr old cat to sleep 3 days ago. I didn't expect to do it..and i don't know if i made the wrong decision..too soon. She was diagnosed with kidney disease (the beginning stages) in November. She kept drinking water almost every other hour. Just 2 weeks ago, she got what seemed like a uti, so i brought her into the vet, and they gave her an antibiotic shot, called Convenia.(?)
I reluctantly agreed to it, because i told the vet she is not good with pill. I was also worried because i had thought the shot might hurt her kidneys more. The vet gave her subq fluids and then i took her home. I was to continue subq every few days..but it was difficult for me to do, as she is kind of a hard cat to treat.
The next day she developed what seemed like a bump/infection on her but, and her uti was still there..
I had started feeding her cranberry water, and was also giving her Kidney Support gold from amazon.
Two days after the shot, she stopped eating. I read online to give her baby food, or warm up her food, and i tried but she would not have any of it, except the very very very small bits i managed to stuff into her. I brought her in again to the vet , cuz she still had not eaten(day 3 of food strike). I hated to force the food, cuz she seemed to begin to be afraid of me coming near her, with the food. It was heartbreaking..
The vet gave me mirtazapine to put in her ear to help stimulate her appetite . I asked them to give her subq fluids, because i could not do it successfully myself at home. But they said its okay to skip it, and to bring her in next week to do that. They also did not force feed her. Which i wish they had, because i was unable to make her eat at home. My mom and i found it difficult and had tried to stuff food in, and eyedropper her food into her mouth but we were unsuccessful.
She again did not eat again..(day 4) ..the medicine did not work. That night she started having trouble breathing..and i was afraid she would stop breathing that night. I couldnt bare to see her like that..and i really didn't want to continue to force feed..as it seemed to be breaking our bond..
and stress her out more..
I barely slept that night.. She had lost a lot of weight in just a few days..it seemed like she went so quickly down after the antibiotic shot.
The next day i brought her in, and decided to euthanise her. But i don't know if it was too early, that maybe they could have done something. I asked my vet, and he said it was fair, given her fussy nature. But now i think i should have waited..i know its too late now..
But yes there is much guilt, and i miss my friend sooo much! I don't know what to do or think..Ive never lost a pet before, nor really grieved before.
What to do..to stop feeling guilty?? I wish i was more emotionally stable before i did this..to make a better decision...i just didn't want to keep seeing her suffer...like this..
Did anyone ever feel like they euthanised too early? That they could and should have done more? How do you resolve?
Thank you..and sorry so long...
Also it haunts me that i should have spent more time with her..taht also i should have watched her been put to sleep. I didn't watch..i just couldnt as i was just crying non stop at the vet.
I reluctantly agreed to it, because i told the vet she is not good with pill. I was also worried because i had thought the shot might hurt her kidneys more. The vet gave her subq fluids and then i took her home. I was to continue subq every few days..but it was difficult for me to do, as she is kind of a hard cat to treat.
The next day she developed what seemed like a bump/infection on her but, and her uti was still there..
I had started feeding her cranberry water, and was also giving her Kidney Support gold from amazon.
Two days after the shot, she stopped eating. I read online to give her baby food, or warm up her food, and i tried but she would not have any of it, except the very very very small bits i managed to stuff into her. I brought her in again to the vet , cuz she still had not eaten(day 3 of food strike). I hated to force the food, cuz she seemed to begin to be afraid of me coming near her, with the food. It was heartbreaking..
The vet gave me mirtazapine to put in her ear to help stimulate her appetite . I asked them to give her subq fluids, because i could not do it successfully myself at home. But they said its okay to skip it, and to bring her in next week to do that. They also did not force feed her. Which i wish they had, because i was unable to make her eat at home. My mom and i found it difficult and had tried to stuff food in, and eyedropper her food into her mouth but we were unsuccessful.
She again did not eat again..(day 4) ..the medicine did not work. That night she started having trouble breathing..and i was afraid she would stop breathing that night. I couldnt bare to see her like that..and i really didn't want to continue to force feed..as it seemed to be breaking our bond..
and stress her out more..
I barely slept that night.. She had lost a lot of weight in just a few days..it seemed like she went so quickly down after the antibiotic shot.
The next day i brought her in, and decided to euthanise her. But i don't know if it was too early, that maybe they could have done something. I asked my vet, and he said it was fair, given her fussy nature. But now i think i should have waited..i know its too late now..
But yes there is much guilt, and i miss my friend sooo much! I don't know what to do or think..Ive never lost a pet before, nor really grieved before.
What to do..to stop feeling guilty?? I wish i was more emotionally stable before i did this..to make a better decision...i just didn't want to keep seeing her suffer...like this..
Did anyone ever feel like they euthanised too early? That they could and should have done more? How do you resolve?
Thank you..and sorry so long...
Also it haunts me that i should have spent more time with her..taht also i should have watched her been put to sleep. I didn't watch..i just couldnt as i was just crying non stop at the vet.