hello everyone,
i didn't know where should i put this but i just wanted to let it out to someone,
my cat "odette" passed away this Wednesday. at the age of 5 years only.
and i can't for the love of god stop crying, everything reminds me of her, every corner, every space, every thing, her treats, the spot she used to sleep in, her food, her hairs that are still here.
she was perfectly fine, playing and running and eating and everything and i don't know what happened, which is what pains the most, that she was in pain and i didn't notice it.
it happened so suddenly and unexpectedly that i'm still in shock.
and for the past two months i didn't give her enough love and care since i was so busy with college and i regret it, it hurts my heart and the guilt is overwhelming, i regret every moment that i didn't spend with her, every ounce of care and time that i didn't give to her.
if i noticed that she wasn't okay she would be with me right now, if i only knew, if i took her to the vet she would've been okay and fine. and i just want her to forgive me because the guilt is eating me.
she was so young, she had a whole life in front of her, she depended on me and i disappointed her.
i want to know if anyone has lost a beloved cat before and if they are okay right now? because i don't feel like this feeling will go away and i just want a reassurance that everything will be alright.
i didn't know where should i put this but i just wanted to let it out to someone,
my cat "odette" passed away this Wednesday. at the age of 5 years only.
and i can't for the love of god stop crying, everything reminds me of her, every corner, every space, every thing, her treats, the spot she used to sleep in, her food, her hairs that are still here.
she was perfectly fine, playing and running and eating and everything and i don't know what happened, which is what pains the most, that she was in pain and i didn't notice it.
it happened so suddenly and unexpectedly that i'm still in shock.
and for the past two months i didn't give her enough love and care since i was so busy with college and i regret it, it hurts my heart and the guilt is overwhelming, i regret every moment that i didn't spend with her, every ounce of care and time that i didn't give to her.
if i noticed that she wasn't okay she would be with me right now, if i only knew, if i took her to the vet she would've been okay and fine. and i just want her to forgive me because the guilt is eating me.
she was so young, she had a whole life in front of her, she depended on me and i disappointed her.
i want to know if anyone has lost a beloved cat before and if they are okay right now? because i don't feel like this feeling will go away and i just want a reassurance that everything will be alright.