You will not believe this, but I am a grief counselor on a "human" loss site....
but I just experienced something, well, actually about two and a half hours ago that I am not sure I am going to get past anytime soon.
My five year old boy Buddy died suddenly in my hands... me, kneeling on the kitchen floor, yelling his name... even attempting CPR when I realized his heart was not beating...
It was all so freaking horrible... and it happened so dam fast... no way did this just happen.
I held him for an hour...and it is real... dammit... I just don't want to believe it....
thanks for letting me vent.... I cannot sleep, and obviously, I just joined this moment... I needed a place to talk... I am an extreme cat lover.. now I have three cats... omg.....
Sorry, I really am not a freak.... I just cannot believe that whole thing was real.
but I just experienced something, well, actually about two and a half hours ago that I am not sure I am going to get past anytime soon.
My five year old boy Buddy died suddenly in my hands... me, kneeling on the kitchen floor, yelling his name... even attempting CPR when I realized his heart was not beating...
It was all so freaking horrible... and it happened so dam fast... no way did this just happen.
I held him for an hour...and it is real... dammit... I just don't want to believe it....
thanks for letting me vent.... I cannot sleep, and obviously, I just joined this moment... I needed a place to talk... I am an extreme cat lover.. now I have three cats... omg.....
Sorry, I really am not a freak.... I just cannot believe that whole thing was real.