It's been a rough week for me.
Zombi was my stability for almost fourteen years. She kept me going. She got me through the darkness, and then, on Christmas last year, it all changed, and I was trying to save her. To do for her what she did for me every day of her life.
And I feel like I failed.
We probably could have kept her okay with the kidney disease and heart problems, but the cancer saw an opening and just burned through her.
And then the vet screwed up and communally cremated her.
I have some of her fur, two of her whiskers, and two teeth [I paid to have them extracted after--a questionable financial decision after everything, but not one I regret now].
But I miss her. So much.
I wish I could go back to that day in January, back to that room, and just have a bit more time.
I wish I could have what I had with her again.
Zombi was my stability for almost fourteen years. She kept me going. She got me through the darkness, and then, on Christmas last year, it all changed, and I was trying to save her. To do for her what she did for me every day of her life.
And I feel like I failed.
We probably could have kept her okay with the kidney disease and heart problems, but the cancer saw an opening and just burned through her.
And then the vet screwed up and communally cremated her.
I have some of her fur, two of her whiskers, and two teeth [I paid to have them extracted after--a questionable financial decision after everything, but not one I regret now].
But I miss her. So much.
I wish I could go back to that day in January, back to that room, and just have a bit more time.
I wish I could have what I had with her again.