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Time has gone by so fast. It's so weird, it went by so slowly for Lucky, at least that first month. It went by quickly after that.
Been shedding a lot of tears this weekend, especially last night. Someone posted a video about a dog last night, saying what the dog was probably thinking throughout its life, up to the end. I bawled. Absolutely bawled. It was so sad but also cathartic, I think. While I cried a lot for Lucky, I never felt like I truly mourned... enough, for lack of a better word. Sara was sick so she had to be my focus, even when tears were flowing uncontrollably. And now, they are again, but without someone needing my focus and attention.
This was the first weekend since Sara died that I had time to truly grieve. Nothing else on my mind, just this. Lots of crying, and thinking, and seeing things that make me think of my babies that I just lost. And then there are my kittens, whose personalities are blooming before my very eyes. Especially Oscar, omg, I can't believe how much his personality has been blooming.
Anyway, enough of that. I need to put Sara's hair clippings into a little baggie and then stick it in the can with her ashes. The CW at the vet's office gave me a little ceramic thing and put the hair in that. It was so sweet, but so scared the ceramic thing my fall (kittens, after all) and lose the hair. Granted, there is a TON of her hair that she had lost in my bathroom (I'm still finding pieces of it).
Been shedding a lot of tears this weekend, especially last night. Someone posted a video about a dog last night, saying what the dog was probably thinking throughout its life, up to the end. I bawled. Absolutely bawled. It was so sad but also cathartic, I think. While I cried a lot for Lucky, I never felt like I truly mourned... enough, for lack of a better word. Sara was sick so she had to be my focus, even when tears were flowing uncontrollably. And now, they are again, but without someone needing my focus and attention.
This was the first weekend since Sara died that I had time to truly grieve. Nothing else on my mind, just this. Lots of crying, and thinking, and seeing things that make me think of my babies that I just lost. And then there are my kittens, whose personalities are blooming before my very eyes. Especially Oscar, omg, I can't believe how much his personality has been blooming.
Anyway, enough of that. I need to put Sara's hair clippings into a little baggie and then stick it in the can with her ashes. The CW at the vet's office gave me a little ceramic thing and put the hair in that. It was so sweet, but so scared the ceramic thing my fall (kittens, after all) and lose the hair. Granted, there is a TON of her hair that she had lost in my bathroom (I'm still finding pieces of it).