I still pray that Kinky is out there somewhere safe. I know that your last sighting of Butters and then discovering the sad outcome must be so devastating. Many of us here are all too familiar with tragedies. I am very glad that you have joined the TCS family; here you will find comfort, encouragement and awesome advice! Always remind yourself that you were doing your best & just think - maybe if Butters ran fast enough, he joined your mom on their journey over the Night Sky Trail to return to the Creator and all those who have passed on and those yet to be born.