No no that is not true at all, you provided the best care you were able to provide, that is not poor judgement.
I had a similar situation not long ago with my beloved Sonic, where all his blood tests and urinalysis didn't show anything serious wrong, abdominal ultrasound showed nothing. We were keeping an eye on him and put him on early renal food just in case. He was dead of kidney disease not long after, went into end stage renal failure without it being picked up on tests - we'd have had to have been testing him every few weeks in order to detect it, and even then we may not have been able to do anything to help him.
VERY similar story to yours here.
Even though I know that it is not my fault and I probably wouldn't have been able to do anything if I'd had more tests done in November (they might have still picked up nothing untoward, or it may still have been too late), I still absolutely tear myself apart over the what-ifs every day. I think it's just a part of the grieving process when you are responsible for a loved one 100% that you feel these things and doubt yourself and the decisions you have made for your beloved.
It isn't needed though, I know rationally that what happened to my boy was not my fault - I went above and beyond always for him, and so did you and it is none of this is your fault either.
I had a similar situation not long ago with my beloved Sonic, where all his blood tests and urinalysis didn't show anything serious wrong, abdominal ultrasound showed nothing. We were keeping an eye on him and put him on early renal food just in case. He was dead of kidney disease not long after, went into end stage renal failure without it being picked up on tests - we'd have had to have been testing him every few weeks in order to detect it, and even then we may not have been able to do anything to help him.
VERY similar story to yours here.
Even though I know that it is not my fault and I probably wouldn't have been able to do anything if I'd had more tests done in November (they might have still picked up nothing untoward, or it may still have been too late), I still absolutely tear myself apart over the what-ifs every day. I think it's just a part of the grieving process when you are responsible for a loved one 100% that you feel these things and doubt yourself and the decisions you have made for your beloved.
It isn't needed though, I know rationally that what happened to my boy was not my fault - I went above and beyond always for him, and so did you and it is none of this is your fault either.
hugs to you…
