Dear Lola
I met you when you were only a few weeks old. You were the most agressive cat in the litter. You were so small and so tough. I looked into the box and you looked up at me. that sweet face melted my heart. I was told I could have you. So a few weeks later, you were all ready to come home.
your two new dads picked you up and took you food shopping with us. I can still remember how tight you held on to me in the car. I remember you sitting in the shopping cart, swatting at what I threw in. you meowed and enjoyed the attention you got from all the other shoppers.
the first two weeks were amazing. how you almost instantly connected with me. so small you were, on my shoulder while I cooked, hiding your face when it got too hot. and the only cat i have ever heard of that liked the shower. i remember your wet fur against my leg and the echo of your meow,
we went and saved your brother a week later. he was so scared, a fear that would be melted by his big sister. you swatted him and everything was good. the bond you shared with him leaves my heart boken.
i have so many many memories of you and me. taking the sun together, how you would sleep against me in the bright sun, strecthed out.
the way you would lick my tears away when I was in pain. now that you are gone, there is no one to lick my tears, your brother is too sad.
when you died last week, my heart evaporated. i dont know if I will ever get it back. your other dad misses you so much, the pain he felt when you died could be felt deeply. i couldnt speak for a good ten minutes. then the doctor brought you in to me. I sang to you baby, I didnt want you to leave this earth without a song. you so loved music. I sang you your favorite. the one that made you roll on the floor. i know you heard me, I could feel you rubbing my face. your body was so warm, I kept kissing you even though the doctors asked me not to. I wanted to leave apart of me with you. i wanted you to feel love where there was fear. I miss you, its a pain I cannot explain, nor have I felt before. I am so sorry you died alone, I wish they would have let me back there, but they were trying to save you. they couldnt.
you, more than any other person/whatever in my life, made me smile. the love you showed me was unconditional and I am so thankful for it.
I am so sorry if you were ill, the doctor said you were fine. the way you left me and the pain in your face will haunt me for years to come.
i feel like you deserved so much better. but there was no way for us to know.
you brother is sleeping in my lap. he misses you. we both wish you could come home, he is so lost without you. I am so lost without you, you were so much more than a cat. you were indeed the best friend a guy could ever ask for. i miss you chunky princess. your stain will stain with me for life.
I met you when you were only a few weeks old. You were the most agressive cat in the litter. You were so small and so tough. I looked into the box and you looked up at me. that sweet face melted my heart. I was told I could have you. So a few weeks later, you were all ready to come home.
your two new dads picked you up and took you food shopping with us. I can still remember how tight you held on to me in the car. I remember you sitting in the shopping cart, swatting at what I threw in. you meowed and enjoyed the attention you got from all the other shoppers.
the first two weeks were amazing. how you almost instantly connected with me. so small you were, on my shoulder while I cooked, hiding your face when it got too hot. and the only cat i have ever heard of that liked the shower. i remember your wet fur against my leg and the echo of your meow,
we went and saved your brother a week later. he was so scared, a fear that would be melted by his big sister. you swatted him and everything was good. the bond you shared with him leaves my heart boken.
i have so many many memories of you and me. taking the sun together, how you would sleep against me in the bright sun, strecthed out.
the way you would lick my tears away when I was in pain. now that you are gone, there is no one to lick my tears, your brother is too sad.
when you died last week, my heart evaporated. i dont know if I will ever get it back. your other dad misses you so much, the pain he felt when you died could be felt deeply. i couldnt speak for a good ten minutes. then the doctor brought you in to me. I sang to you baby, I didnt want you to leave this earth without a song. you so loved music. I sang you your favorite. the one that made you roll on the floor. i know you heard me, I could feel you rubbing my face. your body was so warm, I kept kissing you even though the doctors asked me not to. I wanted to leave apart of me with you. i wanted you to feel love where there was fear. I miss you, its a pain I cannot explain, nor have I felt before. I am so sorry you died alone, I wish they would have let me back there, but they were trying to save you. they couldnt.
you, more than any other person/whatever in my life, made me smile. the love you showed me was unconditional and I am so thankful for it.
I am so sorry if you were ill, the doctor said you were fine. the way you left me and the pain in your face will haunt me for years to come.
i feel like you deserved so much better. but there was no way for us to know.
you brother is sleeping in my lap. he misses you. we both wish you could come home, he is so lost without you. I am so lost without you, you were so much more than a cat. you were indeed the best friend a guy could ever ask for. i miss you chunky princess. your stain will stain with me for life.