Some of you may remember my speel psycho raving lunatic drama llama vent about the holidays last year with the steps.....
HERE WE GO AGAIN!
Can I just crawl in a corner and cry because I hate that these people can hit such a sensitive nerve by making me feel unwanted and useless. I hate those feelings with a passion and I should be able to just be the bigger person and not let it get to me but I cant. It is like a billion mean nasty needles poking at me. I hate it. I hate that they feel its ok to make someone feel like dog poop because of a stupid piece of paper. Not that we dont respect marriage but we dont feel that we need to rush into anything like that especially since we both have parents who divorced. So why rush, we know we love each other, we know we want to be together why is that stupid piece of paper so important. Seriously we have better things to spend 50 bucks on. Its just depressing. I want these ignorant buttheads to stop getting under my skin and I dont know how to stop it.
Can someone please just turn me into Rip Van Winkle till January 2nd so I dont have to deal with this for another year. I hate feeling so crappy and useless and unwanted and unworthy.
Bleh I just wanna cry, I hate the holidays. I really do.
HERE WE GO AGAIN!
Can I just crawl in a corner and cry because I hate that these people can hit such a sensitive nerve by making me feel unwanted and useless. I hate those feelings with a passion and I should be able to just be the bigger person and not let it get to me but I cant. It is like a billion mean nasty needles poking at me. I hate it. I hate that they feel its ok to make someone feel like dog poop because of a stupid piece of paper. Not that we dont respect marriage but we dont feel that we need to rush into anything like that especially since we both have parents who divorced. So why rush, we know we love each other, we know we want to be together why is that stupid piece of paper so important. Seriously we have better things to spend 50 bucks on. Its just depressing. I want these ignorant buttheads to stop getting under my skin and I dont know how to stop it.
Can someone please just turn me into Rip Van Winkle till January 2nd so I dont have to deal with this for another year. I hate feeling so crappy and useless and unwanted and unworthy.
Bleh I just wanna cry, I hate the holidays. I really do.