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I need help.
My sweet Elmo passed away unexpectedly this morning at 8 years old. My innocent, fluffly orange baby.
We noticed she had a couple small lumps on her a while back, and the vet said to just keep an eye on them because they didn’t seem threatening at the time or to cause her discomfort. We thought at first they were maybe scar tissue from play fighting with the other cats.
She started suddenly getting more of them, quickly, and then one on her face. We scheduled a biopsy (they wanted to remove them and send them off), but we were nervous because she is sensitive to anesthesia due to her heart. She did ok with the anesthesia and the surgery itself to remove the tumors, but the tumors themselves released histamine and caused anaphylactic shock once she was awake and out of surgery. They kept finding more and more bumps under her thick fur. They lost count, and some of them were dark colors like blue and black. Stopped counting at 20. How did i not feel those? They said it was almost certainly cancer, and that she would have gone into histamine related shock eventually at home if we had let just them go, and it could have happened by something as harmless as playing or jumping.
She was on pain medication and just seemed to go back to sleep today. We all got to go and hold her wrapped in a blanket. I can’t believe this, and im getting over a bad sickness so am so loopy from it all. I don’t know what to do now.
I can’t quit blaming myself. The vet said we did all we could, but I can’t turn off my mind. I keep wonder what i could have done differently. I can’t stop crying or get out of bed. I can’t get up and be a good parent or wife. I can’t do anything at all. I miss her, and this should’ve have happened and feels unreal. It all happened so fast. We have another cat (Dude) who we almost lost this year- he underwent stomach surgery, a feeding tube, and has kidney problems- but he is fine. Elmo was just fine,until she wasn’t anymore…
I can’t find peace
My sweet Elmo passed away unexpectedly this morning at 8 years old. My innocent, fluffly orange baby.
We noticed she had a couple small lumps on her a while back, and the vet said to just keep an eye on them because they didn’t seem threatening at the time or to cause her discomfort. We thought at first they were maybe scar tissue from play fighting with the other cats.
She started suddenly getting more of them, quickly, and then one on her face. We scheduled a biopsy (they wanted to remove them and send them off), but we were nervous because she is sensitive to anesthesia due to her heart. She did ok with the anesthesia and the surgery itself to remove the tumors, but the tumors themselves released histamine and caused anaphylactic shock once she was awake and out of surgery. They kept finding more and more bumps under her thick fur. They lost count, and some of them were dark colors like blue and black. Stopped counting at 20. How did i not feel those? They said it was almost certainly cancer, and that she would have gone into histamine related shock eventually at home if we had let just them go, and it could have happened by something as harmless as playing or jumping.
She was on pain medication and just seemed to go back to sleep today. We all got to go and hold her wrapped in a blanket. I can’t believe this, and im getting over a bad sickness so am so loopy from it all. I don’t know what to do now.
I can’t quit blaming myself. The vet said we did all we could, but I can’t turn off my mind. I keep wonder what i could have done differently. I can’t stop crying or get out of bed. I can’t get up and be a good parent or wife. I can’t do anything at all. I miss her, and this should’ve have happened and feels unreal. It all happened so fast. We have another cat (Dude) who we almost lost this year- he underwent stomach surgery, a feeding tube, and has kidney problems- but he is fine. Elmo was just fine,until she wasn’t anymore…
I can’t find peace