- Sep 1, 2013
I've lived in a country i've always hated and always waited to go back home, but it wasn't possible..until now. I have 2 cats a boy and a girl. In my family everybody hates each other, my brother's on drugs, my mother doesnt live with me, and i live with a neighbor that my mom pays for two years now. Everyday of the past years the only joy i had were and are my cats, for they are the only true 'humans' around me. I'm soon going to be 18 and finnaly all i've been waiting for may happen..which is me going back to my country. But ..I can't take my cats with me.. My boy,i love him like a sun, he is my son haha. But the girl, i love her more ,she's about 10-11 years now, she's not that cute so not too many people try to spoil her, but that's because they don;t get her. She's like me, suffered as much as i did ,and although i know she's just..a cat,but she's my everything for her and my country i would give my life. I wouldn't give it for any memeber of my family, nor friends nor anything.. Is that normal? i mean ofc it isnt. But I don't know what to do now..it's going to be a new life for me..new people..and.. a job maybe. and i'm....leaving her behind.. i don't know how to deal with this,,.,, even now i'm sitting next to her and cant hold back my tears,, i bet she doesnt have a clue what's going on.. And i know she will be well taken care of ,i mean they will. But no one understands her like i do, she doesnt really like people..and she's not like my baby boy ..he is cute and everybody loves him so i know he'll be alright. And me? How will i survive without the only being that ever stood by me. And what if one day i come back here and none of them recognizes me? PS sorry for writing this much..