Wow, I just noticed that the last time I logged on was December 31, 2006... My bday... hehe... So, here I am... Its been a while and stuff's been happening recently that just sucks!
Adrian and I have gone our separate ways... Well, he's gone his way.. and I've stayed right here trying to locate all the pieces of my shattered heart... After, 3 years of telling me that he never wanted to be with anyone... He's decided that he doesnt want to be single anymore... and it turns out that I'm not the girl he wants to be with... Which really sucks to hear... "I think I'm ready to be with someone but I've realized that it's not you...."
I didnt know it was actually possible to feel your heart break... but believe me when I tell you... it is.... I actually got a visual of him with my heart in his hands and then all of sudden just dropping it and it shattering like glass when it hits the ground... God, it still hurts...
And now all I hear from everyone is "I told you so" "You should have never...." "Why did you...?" "Just forget him!" and believe me some of you can probably say the same things to me because a lot of you 'told me so!'
but that's not really why I came back here in the first place... I didnt really come back to talk about this... although I do need to get a lot of it off my chest and you've all listened before...
the real reason why I came back was because I've been feeling really restless after all this... and I've decided that I need to move out of my apartment and away from all the memories that we have here because we were living together... And I'm trying to decide if I should stay in NY or if I should move away... So, since everyone is from different places maybe I can get some ideas of nice places to move to...
I also think it's time that I get another kitten.. since Malakai is still living with my friends mom... I decided to let him stay there because she had become really attached to him and he had gotten used to being there so I didnt think it would be fair to take him away... but I'm trying to decide if I should get another kitten, actually 2, now or if I should wait till I move...
Any thoughts, comments, suggestions??
Adrian and I have gone our separate ways... Well, he's gone his way.. and I've stayed right here trying to locate all the pieces of my shattered heart... After, 3 years of telling me that he never wanted to be with anyone... He's decided that he doesnt want to be single anymore... and it turns out that I'm not the girl he wants to be with... Which really sucks to hear... "I think I'm ready to be with someone but I've realized that it's not you...."
I didnt know it was actually possible to feel your heart break... but believe me when I tell you... it is.... I actually got a visual of him with my heart in his hands and then all of sudden just dropping it and it shattering like glass when it hits the ground... God, it still hurts...
And now all I hear from everyone is "I told you so" "You should have never...." "Why did you...?" "Just forget him!" and believe me some of you can probably say the same things to me because a lot of you 'told me so!'
but that's not really why I came back here in the first place... I didnt really come back to talk about this... although I do need to get a lot of it off my chest and you've all listened before...
the real reason why I came back was because I've been feeling really restless after all this... and I've decided that I need to move out of my apartment and away from all the memories that we have here because we were living together... And I'm trying to decide if I should stay in NY or if I should move away... So, since everyone is from different places maybe I can get some ideas of nice places to move to...
I also think it's time that I get another kitten.. since Malakai is still living with my friends mom... I decided to let him stay there because she had become really attached to him and he had gotten used to being there so I didnt think it would be fair to take him away... but I'm trying to decide if I should get another kitten, actually 2, now or if I should wait till I move...
Any thoughts, comments, suggestions??