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Tonight was my first full math class and because of something in my past, I was really dreading going. You see, when I was growing up, my father decided that because I was so stupid in math, that the appearance of his belt would help me learn better. Anytime I didn't get a problem right on my math homework, he would beat me. Bring home bad grades in math (anything lower that a C I would get beaten. Well, it didn't work and I failed math all through school and he wore out several belts and a few buckles on me. So I grew up with a hate like you wouldn't believe and looking at a column of numbers would send me into a panic attack complete with an arsenal of tears and the shakes.
So tonight, I pulled my teacher aside and told her my past and she was really kind, she spent about an hour just talkiing to me, drawing me out really and sat with me while I read the first chapter explaining to me terms and concepts I was unfamiliar with and then she gave me a competency test of 100 questions. I only missed 6! And I only came close to crying twice!! It is a huge step forward for me and I have a smile as wide as the Nile River right now. I wanted to share this with all of you not to brag, because after all the test was only on the first chapter, and there are 86 more chapters to go, and not so you would feel sorry for me because of what my father did so long ago, but because I would hope you would celebrate with me the achievement I feel right now. If I can conquer this mental block then in the long run, nothing will stop me from attaining my goals and getting all I can out of life!
So tonight, I pulled my teacher aside and told her my past and she was really kind, she spent about an hour just talkiing to me, drawing me out really and sat with me while I read the first chapter explaining to me terms and concepts I was unfamiliar with and then she gave me a competency test of 100 questions. I only missed 6! And I only came close to crying twice!! It is a huge step forward for me and I have a smile as wide as the Nile River right now. I wanted to share this with all of you not to brag, because after all the test was only on the first chapter, and there are 86 more chapters to go, and not so you would feel sorry for me because of what my father did so long ago, but because I would hope you would celebrate with me the achievement I feel right now. If I can conquer this mental block then in the long run, nothing will stop me from attaining my goals and getting all I can out of life!