A Huge Hole In My Heart And Home Now....

[cara1970]

Darlin, we don't really get OVER our losses, we just get THROUGH them. But with time, the pain is just an ache, not a searing, tearing, open wound. It will come. When? When it does, and so slowly you will only see it happening in retrospect. Little by little, if you allow it, the happy memories will outweigh the sad ones.

Of course you have doubts now. That's a very human reaction. It's wrong...You did the VERY BEST THING for your Dear Friend, but it is human. Be at peace with that decision. Know that Fred blesses you for helping him shrug off that heavy coat of flesh and fur that could no longer support his loving heart and great spirit.

You are so right on everything you have said above, it's been month now, it's just an ache now. Life goes on. Bit by bit my brain and heart and getting over this. It now longer feels like my heart is in a blender. Thank you for your kind words. I never got the opportunity to reply, but they were so helpful. thank you.