I met lots of people who were tough in the military, and lots who wanted to be tough. The truly tough ones were perfectly comfortable showing their emotions when they needed to or chose to. So if you feel like crying, then crack on. I quite literally screamed at the sky when I lost my Eva a few years back, and suspect more of the same is in my future.im home from having my cat put down, i had her for 20 years and three months. im so full of guilt i should have spent money for testing. now im home with no cat to snuggle and feeling like i failed her. im so sad right now. this entire house reminds me of her, she was so good to me. im supposed to know what to do and be a tough guy but i just want to cry.
Your cat was 20 years old and still obviously loved. In no way did you fail her. It was, tragically, just her time. She had so many years of happiness with you, and in time that's what you will remember. The end is awful but just remember it's awful for YOU. Her pain is over. She's at peace. You are the one in pain. So allow yourself to grieve. To cry, shout, whatever you need. Give yourself time and space to heal.