I had a friend in from malaysia the other day - he flew in - did three hours of business and then he drove 300 miles to meet me. We ate and talked and drank copious amounts of coffee till the early hours and throughly enjoyed each others company.
I look at him, hes the same age - within reason who has made something of his life, he has a great job, responsibility and gets to travel and meet people. I sit all day on a pc, taking abuse from customers and am heavily monitored from what I say and do. It gets the stage that you almost have to put up ones hand for the toilet... and I wonder what there is out there and how to get hold of it.
I want more, I would like what he has, he also has a familly, he is a lot more intelligent than me and I wonder if this is what is holding me back?
I keep trying to get my french language up to speed - being bilingual was always something I wanted to be - i just get bored of it and then lose interest.
I want to be able to give my wife and son everything and as I cannot - then its dragging me down big style.
Even my relationship with my wife and son is suffering a lot - like my wife wanted to know the other day - when was the last time I told her I loved her and I cannot reply - I just cant. I do love her but there seems to be little love there at the moment. Have taken a day off as holiday - we cant afford to go out and all we seem to be doing is her sat x stitching and playing with Chris and me on this or reading / modelling.
You ever just want more and want to improve yourself. I wake with the same face that i feel i goto bed with and feel very miserable.
Need a kick up the preverbial I think - any offers? If you wanted to improve yourself - where would you start?
Kev
having a real Loowwwww day and thanks for listening
I look at him, hes the same age - within reason who has made something of his life, he has a great job, responsibility and gets to travel and meet people. I sit all day on a pc, taking abuse from customers and am heavily monitored from what I say and do. It gets the stage that you almost have to put up ones hand for the toilet... and I wonder what there is out there and how to get hold of it.
I want more, I would like what he has, he also has a familly, he is a lot more intelligent than me and I wonder if this is what is holding me back?
I keep trying to get my french language up to speed - being bilingual was always something I wanted to be - i just get bored of it and then lose interest.
I want to be able to give my wife and son everything and as I cannot - then its dragging me down big style.
Even my relationship with my wife and son is suffering a lot - like my wife wanted to know the other day - when was the last time I told her I loved her and I cannot reply - I just cant. I do love her but there seems to be little love there at the moment. Have taken a day off as holiday - we cant afford to go out and all we seem to be doing is her sat x stitching and playing with Chris and me on this or reading / modelling.
You ever just want more and want to improve yourself. I wake with the same face that i feel i goto bed with and feel very miserable.
Need a kick up the preverbial I think - any offers? If you wanted to improve yourself - where would you start?
Kev
having a real Loowwwww day and thanks for listening