Just wonderin who else is home tonite. Sorry to be a downer, but New Years just seems to suck for me every single year and the only steadfast, unconditional love I get is from my kitty's.
I was dating a guy for years. We met on New years about 9 years ago, yet every New Year following that something always happened and we wound up not together (usually his choice cause he was a partier, I wasn't). I have hated New Years for years because of this. To me New Years is a big couples nite, just a night that should be shared, but he never thought that way. It was always a party night for him. Well we finally split last year around the holidays (mostly because I had had enough of being blown off), but started kinda seeing a bit of each other this year again. So I guess I was looking forward to spending New Years with him. I was thinking of it as possibly a new beginning? Starting over? Something. I bought some new clothes, started to get ready, then I get a message telling me he forgot he made other plans last night and have a good new years. Needless to say I am very hurt and pretty much in tears right now. Everytime I get my hopes up - he crashes them down like this. I don't know who he's going out with tonite. He hasn't dated anyone else since we split, but he did go to a wedding last night with a friend of his and I can't help but wonder if he either met someone there or hooked up with his friend for tonite. It's just odd for him to suddenly say he's got plans. Mind you this message was around 5pm tonite!! Either way it sucks. He goes to one place and one place only for New Years and this is the first year he isn't going there. It's just very odd and I can't help but wonder if there's more to this story than he's saying. Anyways - it just sucks so bad and I don't think he realizes just how much he hurts me every time he does this (and how stupid I feel falling for it every time)
So - kids are going to their friends house and I'll be home alone - crying all night - again. Why should this year be any different?
I was dating a guy for years. We met on New years about 9 years ago, yet every New Year following that something always happened and we wound up not together (usually his choice cause he was a partier, I wasn't). I have hated New Years for years because of this. To me New Years is a big couples nite, just a night that should be shared, but he never thought that way. It was always a party night for him. Well we finally split last year around the holidays (mostly because I had had enough of being blown off), but started kinda seeing a bit of each other this year again. So I guess I was looking forward to spending New Years with him. I was thinking of it as possibly a new beginning? Starting over? Something. I bought some new clothes, started to get ready, then I get a message telling me he forgot he made other plans last night and have a good new years. Needless to say I am very hurt and pretty much in tears right now. Everytime I get my hopes up - he crashes them down like this. I don't know who he's going out with tonite. He hasn't dated anyone else since we split, but he did go to a wedding last night with a friend of his and I can't help but wonder if he either met someone there or hooked up with his friend for tonite. It's just odd for him to suddenly say he's got plans. Mind you this message was around 5pm tonite!! Either way it sucks. He goes to one place and one place only for New Years and this is the first year he isn't going there. It's just very odd and I can't help but wonder if there's more to this story than he's saying. Anyways - it just sucks so bad and I don't think he realizes just how much he hurts me every time he does this (and how stupid I feel falling for it every time)
So - kids are going to their friends house and I'll be home alone - crying all night - again. Why should this year be any different?