Oh, boy. I'm so sorry. Many of us have been where you are right now. When I lost my 17-1/2 year old kitty--my best friend and "only child", my world was shattered. It's so hard--my thoughts are with you both.Wonderful post.
My 17 year old Suzie was diagnosed with heart disease and given 6 weeks to live.
That was 18 months ago, and after 18 months of giving her various tablets it seems that she is now in her final days.
She's been my rock for 17 amazing years and I can't believe that our time together may soon be coming to an end.
I've never believed in an after life being an atheist but I do hope that one day I'll be reunited with my little girl.
Rip Skye
Thanks you for posting this and reminding me what I always said about my beloved Skye...
"She is such a cat!"
On April 14, 2014, Skye decided it was her time. She snuck out the front door while the husband was returning from walking the dog.
She was 17 years old. She had major health issues (heart murmur 5.5/6, hyperthyroidism, seizures, throwing up constantly, ...).
Despite being the mom of 4 children she was the love of my heart.
With 4 children growing up around her she never went outside. Doors were left wide open at times. My youngest is now almost 14 yrs old.
I am missing her so much. I am devestatated. I promised her I would be with her when her time to pass came.
It has been 3 weeks now and I still walk daily calling out her name.
We have woods behind our house so I think she went there to die.
I can not find her anywhere. I have done EVERYTHING humanly possible to locate her. She had a collar with tag as well.
It gives me some comfort being reminded she was independent. It was one of the things I love about her.
Her time. Her place. Her terms.
SHE IS A CAT
I'm so sorry for your loss, and that you felt so alone. I'm glad you found this site, too.
What you wrote comes from a place of experience. One of which I wish I have not ever had to do. I've had beautiful, loving, sweet kitties most of my life and cruelly that decision was made from me on their behalf more than I ever wanted. I have never been part of a forum/ blog/ chat etc. This is the first time that I am with people of understanding of our love of these beautiful babies. I have always felt that in my circle of family and friends...dogs rule and cats are what you throw out at night and throw scraps to. I love each and every one of my kids and so when the time came that I lost one, I felt so very isolated and alone in my ever powerful grief. It tore at my heart and every thought. I wanted to scream out and tell the world that Gods most perfect companion and friend was no longer here....with me. At times my heartache felt unbearable...so much because I had no one to share my tremendous loss with. Thank you so much to allow me to read your thoughts and experience and to give my heart and pain a voice. Thank you.