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Last night I joined a gym and signed up with a personal trainer. I am so sick of being fat and unfit and tired and unhappy all the time.
So I went tonight for my first session, thinking afterwards I would come out all pumped and energetic and positive, and instead I just feel stupid.
I had no idea how terribly unfit I've become, and how much strength I've lost. My trainer, Ben, is lovely, but I was just so embarrassed and ashamed. I ended up in tears in the change rooms afterwards wondering how on earth I could've ended up this way.
I feel very despondent now, instead of how I thought I'd feel. I know things will get easier and better but this was a real shock to my system and to my confidence, and I just feel miserable.
So I went tonight for my first session, thinking afterwards I would come out all pumped and energetic and positive, and instead I just feel stupid.
I had no idea how terribly unfit I've become, and how much strength I've lost. My trainer, Ben, is lovely, but I was just so embarrassed and ashamed. I ended up in tears in the change rooms afterwards wondering how on earth I could've ended up this way.
I feel very despondent now, instead of how I thought I'd feel. I know things will get easier and better but this was a real shock to my system and to my confidence, and I just feel miserable.