Condolences on your sad loss of Benji. He was such a beautiful cat - your home must feel so empty with him gone. I really like your desktop photo of him, was he a chocolate point? this is a rough age for you to lose such a dear soulmate - when I was 15 my 9 year old horse died of colic, and it was very difficult to put up with school, teen friends with their own problems, and then to lose my horse
Fortunately, I had my cats and dog to help me through the dark days. Maybe you could start a journal about how you feel, day by day - you could use it in the future when you are needed to help someone else who has lost a pet. Please keep us updated on how you are doing, okay?
Hugs, Susan