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I am new to the group and wanted to share my situation, as I am at my breaking point and unsure of what to do. I adopted my Winter baby on Feb. 28, 2022 from my local animal shelter. He is neutered, and declawed, up to date on all vaccines. When I first got him, I knew he was anxious about his new environment so he would urinate outside of the litter box, hide, excessively groom, etc. I knew it was him just trying to get used to his new environment. I purchased a cat water fountain, lots of toys, a cat tunnel, sensitive-paw cat litter, etc. At the beginning, I was getting maybe 2-3 hours of sleep a night. It was affecting my relationships, and even how I performed at my job.
Things got so bad to where he was excessively licking below his neck which created a bald spot that was red and infected. I immediately called the vet and she recommended hydrocortisone cream and an e-collar. I tried both for about 10 days and they seemed to help him a lot. The redness went away and his behavior was a lot better. I purchased a Feliway diffuser, as I heard it helps stressed/anxious cats and I believe it is working. I bought the diffuser about 2 weeks ago.
A few days ago, Winter managed to get the e-collar off multiple times, and after speaking with the vet, she explained that as long as Winter did not excessively groom the wound again, he would be fine to be off the collar. I took the collar off of him and he seemed really happy, purred a lot and cuddled up to me in bed.
Winter and I have good and bad nights. Sometimes, he will curl up right on my belly or on my legs even, and I may wake up once around 2am. Other nights, he knocks things over, excessively meows, paces back and forth and will not lie down or relax. Last night was one of those nights, and it was my breaking point.
Winter and I fell asleep at about 9:30pm, then he woke me up at 11am, pacing back and forth, meowing excessively. I get up to check his litter box and it is fine, his water fountain is fine, and I checked his neck wound which looked a lot better. I went to lie back down and he would not stop pacing back and forth so I went ahead and played with him and went to go lie down. At around 2am, he wakes me up again, and at this point I just want to cry because I rarely have a good night's rest with him. It is maybe once a week that I do. At around 2am, he is still pacing back and forth, meowing excessively. I get really frustrated and pick him up and place him in the bathroom and yell at him. I feel super guilty about this...
Please note I live in a studio apartment so it is all open concept, and there is not really a place for me to put him and close the door besides the bathroom. After placing him in the bathroom, I lie down but he is meowing and scratching at the door so I get up and let him out, still feeling really guilty. I try to fall back asleep but he is still pacing back and forth, so much that it caused me a lot of anxiety. At around 3am, I had a mental breakdown. I woke up to the strong smell of urine and Winter had urinated on the bed, right by my feet. I usually don't wake up until 4:30am, so I spent a good 45 minutes cleaning and scrubbing the urine from my mattress, all while crying and trying not to freak out. By then my alarm goes off and I have gotten maybe 2-3 hours of good, solid sleep. I have been taking melatonin lately just so I can sleep at night because of my cat.
I suffer from depression and anxiety and wanted to get a cat for the purpose of helping me with my mental illness, but it has done just the opposite. I am stressed all the time and worried about him when I am at work. I try to provide enough stimulation for him when I'm not home, but since I live alone I have to be cautious about opening windows. When it is warmer out, I will usually crack the window, but lately, with me working 10 hour days from 6am-4:30pm, it has been too cold in the mornings to open the window, and I live too far from work to come home on my lunch break and play with Winter.
I feel like a horrible cat parent. I am so stressed, losing sleep, and it is really starting to affect me. I have seriously considered rehoming my cat, to see if living elsewhere with possibly more cats, or with an owner who is home more, will be better for him. I really wanted this to work out, and it is so heartbreaking to write this. Please, I need advice on what to do...
I am new to the group and wanted to share my situation, as I am at my breaking point and unsure of what to do. I adopted my Winter baby on Feb. 28, 2022 from my local animal shelter. He is neutered, and declawed, up to date on all vaccines. When I first got him, I knew he was anxious about his new environment so he would urinate outside of the litter box, hide, excessively groom, etc. I knew it was him just trying to get used to his new environment. I purchased a cat water fountain, lots of toys, a cat tunnel, sensitive-paw cat litter, etc. At the beginning, I was getting maybe 2-3 hours of sleep a night. It was affecting my relationships, and even how I performed at my job.
Things got so bad to where he was excessively licking below his neck which created a bald spot that was red and infected. I immediately called the vet and she recommended hydrocortisone cream and an e-collar. I tried both for about 10 days and they seemed to help him a lot. The redness went away and his behavior was a lot better. I purchased a Feliway diffuser, as I heard it helps stressed/anxious cats and I believe it is working. I bought the diffuser about 2 weeks ago.
A few days ago, Winter managed to get the e-collar off multiple times, and after speaking with the vet, she explained that as long as Winter did not excessively groom the wound again, he would be fine to be off the collar. I took the collar off of him and he seemed really happy, purred a lot and cuddled up to me in bed.
Winter and I have good and bad nights. Sometimes, he will curl up right on my belly or on my legs even, and I may wake up once around 2am. Other nights, he knocks things over, excessively meows, paces back and forth and will not lie down or relax. Last night was one of those nights, and it was my breaking point.
Winter and I fell asleep at about 9:30pm, then he woke me up at 11am, pacing back and forth, meowing excessively. I get up to check his litter box and it is fine, his water fountain is fine, and I checked his neck wound which looked a lot better. I went to lie back down and he would not stop pacing back and forth so I went ahead and played with him and went to go lie down. At around 2am, he wakes me up again, and at this point I just want to cry because I rarely have a good night's rest with him. It is maybe once a week that I do. At around 2am, he is still pacing back and forth, meowing excessively. I get really frustrated and pick him up and place him in the bathroom and yell at him. I feel super guilty about this...
Please note I live in a studio apartment so it is all open concept, and there is not really a place for me to put him and close the door besides the bathroom. After placing him in the bathroom, I lie down but he is meowing and scratching at the door so I get up and let him out, still feeling really guilty. I try to fall back asleep but he is still pacing back and forth, so much that it caused me a lot of anxiety. At around 3am, I had a mental breakdown. I woke up to the strong smell of urine and Winter had urinated on the bed, right by my feet. I usually don't wake up until 4:30am, so I spent a good 45 minutes cleaning and scrubbing the urine from my mattress, all while crying and trying not to freak out. By then my alarm goes off and I have gotten maybe 2-3 hours of good, solid sleep. I have been taking melatonin lately just so I can sleep at night because of my cat.
I suffer from depression and anxiety and wanted to get a cat for the purpose of helping me with my mental illness, but it has done just the opposite. I am stressed all the time and worried about him when I am at work. I try to provide enough stimulation for him when I'm not home, but since I live alone I have to be cautious about opening windows. When it is warmer out, I will usually crack the window, but lately, with me working 10 hour days from 6am-4:30pm, it has been too cold in the mornings to open the window, and I live too far from work to come home on my lunch break and play with Winter.
I feel like a horrible cat parent. I am so stressed, losing sleep, and it is really starting to affect me. I have seriously considered rehoming my cat, to see if living elsewhere with possibly more cats, or with an owner who is home more, will be better for him. I really wanted this to work out, and it is so heartbreaking to write this. Please, I need advice on what to do...
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