it's 2:40 a.m. here, and i am stuck with insomnia - again.
why is it when i am up & about and have energy and
things on my mind, no one else is around! img]http://www.earthzoom.net/confused.gif[/img]
not just here on this site, but in my house as well;
my roomate is sleeping, and my cats are too, and even if he
was awake i dont know if i'd have anything to say exactly.
i have in-your-head insomnia, if that makes any sense.
my thoughts are going a mile a minute, but i cant focus on
them and relay them to other people.
so this is kind of stream-of-conciousness thoughts.
feel free to post your own musings if you read this
my back pain is getting worse and worse by the day,
but i cant complain or pull out my hair because i'm
not getting treatment at the moment... with this
depression i have, it makes it impossible some days
to even get out of bed, much less make appointments.
so i suffer. and i feel like my days are wasting away
right before my eyes, and i cant do anything about it.
like i am not spending them well, or well enough.
i'm tired all the time, and my energy is lower then someone
who has long been dead and buried. i cant get up without
strain or move around easily, i hate getting up & down,
and the idea of going out is horrifying at times because
of this low energy, and depression.
it's all i can do to keep from screaming these days, but
maybe i should be screaming, screaming at the top of my
lungs... maybe i should let myself cry more. talk more.
i've said " thoughts " too many times in my head
and now i have the distinct feeling it's really
not a real word
now my roomate, Cameron, is snoring, something he will
try to refute tomorrow if i tell him - men
is anyone else up out there? the sun is probaly up or almost
up for some of you by now. come talk with me
i'm going to make some herbal tea and take a bath
try to relax myself into a sleepy state.
why is it when i am up & about and have energy and
things on my mind, no one else is around! img]http://www.earthzoom.net/confused.gif[/img]
not just here on this site, but in my house as well;
my roomate is sleeping, and my cats are too, and even if he
was awake i dont know if i'd have anything to say exactly.
i have in-your-head insomnia, if that makes any sense.
my thoughts are going a mile a minute, but i cant focus on
them and relay them to other people.
so this is kind of stream-of-conciousness thoughts.
feel free to post your own musings if you read this
my back pain is getting worse and worse by the day,
but i cant complain or pull out my hair because i'm
not getting treatment at the moment... with this
depression i have, it makes it impossible some days
to even get out of bed, much less make appointments.
so i suffer. and i feel like my days are wasting away
right before my eyes, and i cant do anything about it.
like i am not spending them well, or well enough.
i'm tired all the time, and my energy is lower then someone
who has long been dead and buried. i cant get up without
strain or move around easily, i hate getting up & down,
and the idea of going out is horrifying at times because
of this low energy, and depression.
it's all i can do to keep from screaming these days, but
maybe i should be screaming, screaming at the top of my
lungs... maybe i should let myself cry more. talk more.
i've said " thoughts " too many times in my head
and now i have the distinct feeling it's really
not a real word
now my roomate, Cameron, is snoring, something he will
try to refute tomorrow if i tell him - men
is anyone else up out there? the sun is probaly up or almost
up for some of you by now. come talk with me
i'm going to make some herbal tea and take a bath
try to relax myself into a sleepy state.