I'm sorry for venting here but I'm so full of steam right now I just need to get it out. I thought last year was bad... a lot of issues occurred, including my father having a heart attack, then bypass surgery and being on the verge of a separation from my husband, little did I know that last year was a cake walk compared to this. This has been my year thus far
March 15-horrible car accident
31-find out I need surgery, the next day
April 1-surgery
May
-my brother in the process of leaving his wife (which has been going on for nearly a year) and she somehow managed to throw ME in the middle which caused massive issues between myself and her sister
June
-find out my dad's not doing well health wise and instead of HELPING his wife (my step mother) is making things worse for him
-my mother's having some health issues.. her anemia's getting WAY worse (even with meds) she's getting cysts on her ovaries and now they found something on her liver
-Rosie gave birth and 2 of the 6 kittens passed, plus those 2-3 days of her not caring for them stressed me out as well
-an issue with my daughter (rather not go into it) that ended up with her being admitted on Thur for a stay at a mental behavior clinic for 5 days
and today, the topping on the cake...
my aunt called me (as I was leaving from my visit with my daughter) and my other aunt went into cardiac arrest today. She had surgery for a leg issue 2 weeks ago and was on blood thinners, well no one knows exactly what happened but her husband came home and found her collapsed on the floor and called 911. They have her "stable" enough for a transfer to another (better) hospital and are going to attempt to give her medication to try and break up the clot(s). She's currently sedated, on all sorts of tubes, and I have no clue what else because no one wants to give me the whole story and stress me out even more. They said her heart is looking strong and she's getting oxygen, they're just not sure if it's enough and need to do some more testing/waiting/watching. All of this and I can't even be there for her (they're in CT).
I'm so done and fed up, I feel like I'm going to lose my mind. Keep in mind that my husband is currently deployed (although, THANKFULLY, he'll be home MUCH sooner than he should've initially been (less than 9 weeks). When does it end? I know life isn't supposed to be more than you can handle and I know that everything will be "ok" but at this point in time I'm really struggling to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I feel like such a crappy daughter/niece because I couldn't be there when my dad had his heart attack and surgery, I couldn't be there with my mother when she found out this news about her health and now my aunt, the one who practically raised me and did SO much for me in life, the one who I've always thought of as more of a mother than my own, is going through this and I can't even be there. I just want this year to end already but if this is how it's been, and we're not even half way through (and I'm sure I've left out a few things) I'm afraid to see how the rest is going to go
March 15-horrible car accident
31-find out I need surgery, the next day
April 1-surgery
May
-my brother in the process of leaving his wife (which has been going on for nearly a year) and she somehow managed to throw ME in the middle which caused massive issues between myself and her sister
June
-find out my dad's not doing well health wise and instead of HELPING his wife (my step mother) is making things worse for him
-my mother's having some health issues.. her anemia's getting WAY worse (even with meds) she's getting cysts on her ovaries and now they found something on her liver
-Rosie gave birth and 2 of the 6 kittens passed, plus those 2-3 days of her not caring for them stressed me out as well
-an issue with my daughter (rather not go into it) that ended up with her being admitted on Thur for a stay at a mental behavior clinic for 5 days
and today, the topping on the cake...
my aunt called me (as I was leaving from my visit with my daughter) and my other aunt went into cardiac arrest today. She had surgery for a leg issue 2 weeks ago and was on blood thinners, well no one knows exactly what happened but her husband came home and found her collapsed on the floor and called 911. They have her "stable" enough for a transfer to another (better) hospital and are going to attempt to give her medication to try and break up the clot(s). She's currently sedated, on all sorts of tubes, and I have no clue what else because no one wants to give me the whole story and stress me out even more. They said her heart is looking strong and she's getting oxygen, they're just not sure if it's enough and need to do some more testing/waiting/watching. All of this and I can't even be there for her (they're in CT).
I'm so done and fed up, I feel like I'm going to lose my mind. Keep in mind that my husband is currently deployed (although, THANKFULLY, he'll be home MUCH sooner than he should've initially been (less than 9 weeks). When does it end? I know life isn't supposed to be more than you can handle and I know that everything will be "ok" but at this point in time I'm really struggling to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I feel like such a crappy daughter/niece because I couldn't be there when my dad had his heart attack and surgery, I couldn't be there with my mother when she found out this news about her health and now my aunt, the one who practically raised me and did SO much for me in life, the one who I've always thought of as more of a mother than my own, is going through this and I can't even be there. I just want this year to end already but if this is how it's been, and we're not even half way through (and I'm sure I've left out a few things) I'm afraid to see how the rest is going to go