I know I never said this before nor introduced either of them but. I have two kittens and one of them passed two months ago. I was forced to euthanize her on March 10th after having my worst fears confirmed on March 9th. As for what killed her? It was the horrific disease known as FIP. I adopted her back on November 22nd and she was sickly from the start but I thought it was just a URI and never bothered the shelter really only telling them that she continued having problems and was tragically diagnosed with FIP.
I adopted her with her sister their names at the time were Rhoda (black) and G.G. (tabby) and they were with their tuxedo sister (Sugar Plum) whom I couldn't adopt due to apartment limits (if I had my way I would have taken all 3). But I took her figuring she was just shy and with her being a black cat I thought she would be doomed if I left her behind.
Recently after she passed I was asked if I regretted adopting her and at times before I wondered what would have happened if I had adopted Sugar Plum instead of one of the two I did but I realized even if I knew this tragic fate would befall her I still would have taken in her in all the same.
I want to be clear I didn't leave either of their names while in my care Rhoda became Tsuki (Japanese for moon intention was to adopt a male and female but since I had two females Tsukiyomi didn't sound right) and he tabby sister G.G. became Sera (Latin name meaning "heavenly winged angel").
At the end of her life she was never alone I stayed till the end and had Sera there as well so that she could say her last good byes. I watched till sometime after she passed from this world. I didn't stay because it was easy in fact my older sister discouraged me from doing so when I mentioned it but I knew I'd regret it if I didn't since I've had to do it once before a little over ten years before this time.
A few hours before I had her euthanized I walked into my apartment bedroom and found her having a seizure all I could do was try to find a way to comfort her than she started yowling in pain before purring to soothe herself. I spent the last couple hours before my vet finally opened just holding her. When it was close to opening all I could do was hope that she didn't just die in the car i just didnt' want her to die there anywhere else but the car she was just too far from my reach in that situation.
When I got to the vet they knew why I was there because I made sure to call them before they opened and they got me in quickly. My vet took the paw print mold and clearly felt horrible about the whole thing everyone there did which was something I had never seen before. The vet I had the first time I went through this was far more cold.
Through all this I realized one thing I wasn't able to change her faite and after it all I can do is take a step forward. It's supposed to be the simplest thing a person can do but after all that it was the hardest thing imaginable
She was loved by both her sister Sera and myself
I'll never forget the shy little girl who was terrified of everyone including me for a long time but eventually tried to clean me it was something I had never seen a cat/kitten do to a person and normally I'd stop it but it seemed to make her happy. I was the only one she ever came to fully trust in spite of the fact she spent a lot of time around my parents/brother in my parents home. She looked so happy upon getting the cat tree and climbing it that first night a week after I adopted her and Sera going from this...
to this...
The memorial which was completed on Friday afternoon after about a month of planning. It contains her last collar given to her the day before she passed, a plate stating her name and DOB/DOD, her paw print, a black frame and well a photo of her in better times. I'll be hanging this on my apartments wall once I find a fitting place. I haven't had the chance to do so yet because I got back here late tonight with her sister.
Goodbye Tsuki tor maybe that's not right. It's not so much goodbye as see you later because it really doesn't matter what awaits me beyond this life I'd find her even if it took a thousand lifetimes. I'd find my forever kitten at all costs.
I adopted her with her sister their names at the time were Rhoda (black) and G.G. (tabby) and they were with their tuxedo sister (Sugar Plum) whom I couldn't adopt due to apartment limits (if I had my way I would have taken all 3). But I took her figuring she was just shy and with her being a black cat I thought she would be doomed if I left her behind.
Recently after she passed I was asked if I regretted adopting her and at times before I wondered what would have happened if I had adopted Sugar Plum instead of one of the two I did but I realized even if I knew this tragic fate would befall her I still would have taken in her in all the same.
I want to be clear I didn't leave either of their names while in my care Rhoda became Tsuki (Japanese for moon intention was to adopt a male and female but since I had two females Tsukiyomi didn't sound right) and he tabby sister G.G. became Sera (Latin name meaning "heavenly winged angel").
At the end of her life she was never alone I stayed till the end and had Sera there as well so that she could say her last good byes. I watched till sometime after she passed from this world. I didn't stay because it was easy in fact my older sister discouraged me from doing so when I mentioned it but I knew I'd regret it if I didn't since I've had to do it once before a little over ten years before this time.
A few hours before I had her euthanized I walked into my apartment bedroom and found her having a seizure all I could do was try to find a way to comfort her than she started yowling in pain before purring to soothe herself. I spent the last couple hours before my vet finally opened just holding her. When it was close to opening all I could do was hope that she didn't just die in the car i just didnt' want her to die there anywhere else but the car she was just too far from my reach in that situation.
When I got to the vet they knew why I was there because I made sure to call them before they opened and they got me in quickly. My vet took the paw print mold and clearly felt horrible about the whole thing everyone there did which was something I had never seen before. The vet I had the first time I went through this was far more cold.
Through all this I realized one thing I wasn't able to change her faite and after it all I can do is take a step forward. It's supposed to be the simplest thing a person can do but after all that it was the hardest thing imaginable
She was loved by both her sister Sera and myself
I'll never forget the shy little girl who was terrified of everyone including me for a long time but eventually tried to clean me it was something I had never seen a cat/kitten do to a person and normally I'd stop it but it seemed to make her happy. I was the only one she ever came to fully trust in spite of the fact she spent a lot of time around my parents/brother in my parents home. She looked so happy upon getting the cat tree and climbing it that first night a week after I adopted her and Sera going from this...
to this...
The memorial which was completed on Friday afternoon after about a month of planning. It contains her last collar given to her the day before she passed, a plate stating her name and DOB/DOD, her paw print, a black frame and well a photo of her in better times. I'll be hanging this on my apartments wall once I find a fitting place. I haven't had the chance to do so yet because I got back here late tonight with her sister.
Goodbye Tsuki tor maybe that's not right. It's not so much goodbye as see you later because it really doesn't matter what awaits me beyond this life I'd find her even if it took a thousand lifetimes. I'd find my forever kitten at all costs.
I'm very sorry about the loss of your precious little girl. RIP, Tsuki. 
