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My cat I've spent almost 14 years with has passed away about an year ago. I had a lot of mixed thoughts/emotions during that time but a few months later I was almost alright.
I started to think more of the time we've spent together, rather than her last moments and could talk of her freely, with love and gratefullness, rather than sadness. I was starting to think, that's it, it's over. I'm going to miss her, but the terrible grieving stages are over.
Two days ago I dream of her, hugging her and telling her I love her and miss her so much. Second night I dream again. It is a more positive dream. I see her casually walking around in the house and accept it as if nothing has ever happened, but I wake up and feel as if I'm starting from the 0 again. I don't know what to do. It feels like a part of me was cut off and destroyed.
Have you had your grief return and hit you so hard?
I started to think more of the time we've spent together, rather than her last moments and could talk of her freely, with love and gratefullness, rather than sadness. I was starting to think, that's it, it's over. I'm going to miss her, but the terrible grieving stages are over.
Two days ago I dream of her, hugging her and telling her I love her and miss her so much. Second night I dream again. It is a more positive dream. I see her casually walking around in the house and accept it as if nothing has ever happened, but I wake up and feel as if I'm starting from the 0 again. I don't know what to do. It feels like a part of me was cut off and destroyed.
Have you had your grief return and hit you so hard?