You write such captivating words. It's as though I were there,and I once knew these lovers of your soul. You are truly deep and passionate. And even when you describe the death of your child,there is a known peace behind your words. No longer in pain and suffering,are these children of yours...and this calms the raging anguish in your heart....yet you still have deep pain and suffering. Even as the time passes on,the yearning you have inside for the pieces of you that are no longer here physically,remains. My friend,take refuge in The Lord. They never left you,love. They are always at your side. Just because you cannot see them,does not mean that they are not there. And I am reminded of Faith. Believing in the things not seen.......you are an amazing woman!