God help me. 2021 was the worst year of my life! 1/8/21 my father passed away, 4/16/21 found my 16 year old cat dead in living room, Mothers Day 2021 held my mother's hand as she took her last breathe, 9/16/21 had to have vet come to my house and put my other 16 year old cat down. So now I have a 12 year old female that belonged to my uncle. He asked me if I would take her in because he was not feeling well and then he died of cancer. Her name is Lilbit. She weighs 9 lbs. I have one other girl named Jimmie Sue who weighs 21lbs. I don't even need to vacuum because she does it for me. All my cats strictly indoor. I started noticing green snot on the walls and windows. I realized Lilbit was having sneezing. Next her eye started getting goopy bloody like dripping from it. Turns out she had herpes ulcer in her eye. After giving her regular antibiotic eye drops and antibiotic liquid for her sneezing for 3 weeks I took her for recheck. No improvement. The vet then said that he thought the eye was herpes and that she had a broken canine that needed to be pulled and the nose would clear up on its own. Eye cleared up, dental was done and we are now over $3000.Nose has not cleared up. Back to the vet who says I think it is herpes rhinitis. The whole pill thing has been a NIGHTMARE!!! Both liquid and tablet. I was afraid her lungs were filled so $250. to see her lungs are clear. She HAS to have the antiviral tablet. I was successful getting a pill down her throat 3 times. The problem now is she does not trust me. If I proceed near her she runs like hell. I an 59 years old and live alone. I feel like such a failure because I can't do this and have told the vet repeatedly. He told me to get some feliway. Only been 4 days so still hoping it will calm her. I just don't know what to do. My parents left me a special needs trust. I live in Corona, Ca my sister is in charge of it and she lives in Boston, Ma and never had a pet so she does not understand why I keep having all these bills and my cat is still sick. I am still struggling with all the losses. I lived with my mom and dad and disabled brother for 12 years before we had to put my folks in assisted living. All I can say is someone please HELP.