AT the start of the year, three cats started to come to our house. We adopted them all. They were pregnant queens so they had kits, we found them homes and sterilized them and loved them.
Phoebe was the sweetest cat I have known. She would sit down and let herself be pet even pushing away other cats begging for food just be pet (and to get food). She was very agile and the second door outside opened she would be there to meow. She would play with her sister's kit and care for them as her own from the moment Pinky gave birth. She was the only cat who seemed to like my presence.
Unfortunately I live in rural nowhere with horrible gparenrs who would never have us a cat inside. Our huge dog being inside was only because he cant go to their half of the house and even he is on edge. So they lived outside and paid the horrible price. Phoebe always did like going inside though. Like she knew what would happen.
An hour ago my mom found Phoebe ran over by the road and woke me up to tell me, crying. I've had delayed reqction but now its in full force. I have been shaking and crying. I dont frequent forums as I am bad at it. But I didnt know where else to go. I have never lost a pet before. I know our elderlys dog time is coming to a close and I am coping badly with even that. Phoebe was young. She had not even a year when she came to us. I feel it so strongly I could explode. I wont ever go outside to see her sitting in a couch meowing softly and letting herself be pet, purring. I wont ever pet her again. I wont ever see her playing like a kitten
I feel nothing but grief and anger. We still have 8 cats, two adults, one kitten from first litter we couldnt find home dor and five remaining kittens from the second one. What happened could happen to them as well. No amount of neutering will prevent it. And they cant be inside because my grandparents are terrible people ( even outside of this).
I dont know wgat to do. I dont want to do anything but I cant go back to sleep either and I just feel static and getting my nxiety attacks (which i cant prevent because i do so by keeping myself busy). Its just horrible. Its just terrible. I will miss her so much.
Phoebe was the sweetest cat I have known. She would sit down and let herself be pet even pushing away other cats begging for food just be pet (and to get food). She was very agile and the second door outside opened she would be there to meow. She would play with her sister's kit and care for them as her own from the moment Pinky gave birth. She was the only cat who seemed to like my presence.
Unfortunately I live in rural nowhere with horrible gparenrs who would never have us a cat inside. Our huge dog being inside was only because he cant go to their half of the house and even he is on edge. So they lived outside and paid the horrible price. Phoebe always did like going inside though. Like she knew what would happen.
An hour ago my mom found Phoebe ran over by the road and woke me up to tell me, crying. I've had delayed reqction but now its in full force. I have been shaking and crying. I dont frequent forums as I am bad at it. But I didnt know where else to go. I have never lost a pet before. I know our elderlys dog time is coming to a close and I am coping badly with even that. Phoebe was young. She had not even a year when she came to us. I feel it so strongly I could explode. I wont ever go outside to see her sitting in a couch meowing softly and letting herself be pet, purring. I wont ever pet her again. I wont ever see her playing like a kitten
I feel nothing but grief and anger. We still have 8 cats, two adults, one kitten from first litter we couldnt find home dor and five remaining kittens from the second one. What happened could happen to them as well. No amount of neutering will prevent it. And they cant be inside because my grandparents are terrible people ( even outside of this).
I dont know wgat to do. I dont want to do anything but I cant go back to sleep either and I just feel static and getting my nxiety attacks (which i cant prevent because i do so by keeping myself busy). Its just horrible. Its just terrible. I will miss her so much.
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