I know I promised myself I would not burden you all with my problems anymore as it seemed that lately, that's all that I have in my life but....I'm not sure how much more I can handle.
Honestly....I truly, wholeheartedly have had it. To the point, I don't even know if there are tears left. I just feel empty.
Anyways, most of you already know what an awful month of December I had with my father-in-law passing away and my grandmother 2 weeks after. Plus, both my sister and grandfather were admitted to the hospital on Christmas day. My sister is fine. My grandfather ended up with a collapsed lung and they inserted a draining tube to remove the fluid build up.
About a half hour ago, I received a phone call. Seems grandpa has now been diagnosed with lung cancer. He's known all day but did not want to call and tell me. They are sending him away to see what kind of treatment he will need. They also need to determine how bad it really is (or is not???). I don't hold out much hope. I am logical on this as I know lung cancer is not something that can be easily treated.
I guess I really just want to vent.
I honestly believe, I am losing faith in everything. I don't know....Is there some kind of voodoo dance I should be doing to send all this bad luck right where it came from????
I'm tired. Tired of crying, tired of hurting...just plain tired.
My sister called shortly after I got the news. She asked how I was and I replied: "Oh well...." She must think I am heartless.
For those who may think I am a pain posting all my troubles, I apologize....I just don't know where to turn anymore.
Thank you...
Honestly....I truly, wholeheartedly have had it. To the point, I don't even know if there are tears left. I just feel empty.
Anyways, most of you already know what an awful month of December I had with my father-in-law passing away and my grandmother 2 weeks after. Plus, both my sister and grandfather were admitted to the hospital on Christmas day. My sister is fine. My grandfather ended up with a collapsed lung and they inserted a draining tube to remove the fluid build up.
About a half hour ago, I received a phone call. Seems grandpa has now been diagnosed with lung cancer. He's known all day but did not want to call and tell me. They are sending him away to see what kind of treatment he will need. They also need to determine how bad it really is (or is not???). I don't hold out much hope. I am logical on this as I know lung cancer is not something that can be easily treated.
I guess I really just want to vent.
I honestly believe, I am losing faith in everything. I don't know....Is there some kind of voodoo dance I should be doing to send all this bad luck right where it came from????
I'm tired. Tired of crying, tired of hurting...just plain tired.
My sister called shortly after I got the news. She asked how I was and I replied: "Oh well...." She must think I am heartless.
For those who may think I am a pain posting all my troubles, I apologize....I just don't know where to turn anymore.
Thank you...