Someone told me a saying once that goes something like this..
"The worst things I've ever been through were the ones that never happened"
We imagine so many horrible things, & when we face our fears & sometimes just do it, it's not so bad. I'm very anxious around people too, I always feel like they are staring at me. (Being tall & skinny doesn't help, I am already horribly self-conscious about myself) Sometimes it makes me just want to not go somewhere alone-Mike has kind of become my "crutch", for lack of better word. Like if I have him to focus on, I don't worry so much about feeling like a freak. For example, if we shop at walMart, I can talk & focus on what we need to get, where to go next & not so much on if that person is staring at me or not.
I can avoid people like Sooz does, but it's not yet a panic thing, it's more like looking like I am doing something else & don't notice. Extreme shyness, very self conscious. More like "Don't look at me, don't interact with me, I feel ugly"
I just used depression as a sort of generalization cuz it's more like what I have to battle..but think that trying to get back independence on your own, bit by bit is still a good thing, regardless..At least to see if it works for you before resorting to meds.
I'm scared to death of getting on meds..there are alot of reasons for that too, but the main one is a fear of a lifetime dependency on them, always having to worry about taking them, going to doctors, keeping a job with a good medical plan, etc..Ugh.
It's a tough one for sure, I totally feel what you are going through-please be strong!
"The worst things I've ever been through were the ones that never happened"
We imagine so many horrible things, & when we face our fears & sometimes just do it, it's not so bad. I'm very anxious around people too, I always feel like they are staring at me. (Being tall & skinny doesn't help, I am already horribly self-conscious about myself) Sometimes it makes me just want to not go somewhere alone-Mike has kind of become my "crutch", for lack of better word. Like if I have him to focus on, I don't worry so much about feeling like a freak. For example, if we shop at walMart, I can talk & focus on what we need to get, where to go next & not so much on if that person is staring at me or not.
I can avoid people like Sooz does, but it's not yet a panic thing, it's more like looking like I am doing something else & don't notice. Extreme shyness, very self conscious. More like "Don't look at me, don't interact with me, I feel ugly"
I just used depression as a sort of generalization cuz it's more like what I have to battle..but think that trying to get back independence on your own, bit by bit is still a good thing, regardless..At least to see if it works for you before resorting to meds.
I'm scared to death of getting on meds..there are alot of reasons for that too, but the main one is a fear of a lifetime dependency on them, always having to worry about taking them, going to doctors, keeping a job with a good medical plan, etc..Ugh.
It's a tough one for sure, I totally feel what you are going through-please be strong!