I know what you mean and if I am honest it has affected me no end. I had a very difficult childhood and I have struggled with certain elements of that all my life. Since being in a very supportive relaitionship I realised how deep my issues ran and decided that I would go and get help. This was only a few months ago and I have been diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. I am having very full on therapy with a great therapist and I am on anti-depressants as I will find my journey too hard to cope with without them. I have flashbacks,and t.v programmmes I can't watch, certain enviroments where the lighting is wrong or the doing something I can't stand, anything can take me back. It is amasing how long I have lived with it. You become a lot more aware when you start to face it. As my therapist says though, it is hard but when you go back to face it, this time you are an adult and you have somebody with you. I haven't got that far yet but will do at some point. I know that I have two years of therapy to go yet!! I just want to wish you all the best and to know that you are not alone. Make sure that you do what is best for you because you deserve to be happy. There is nothing wrong with getting help!! Take care