I have been feeding and looking after my new in-home feral cat since it was a kitten that was born at my parent's house. For a little over a year, she has been living outside of my parent's house and we would bring her food and water just about every day. We even went out of town for a few days and she never strayed from the house. She has always had the freedom to leave or go anywhere she pleased but she never left. When she was a kitten, she was born with a sister and they were both very close. A few months ago, she got pregnant from another stray and had 3 kittens. She is a relatively small cat though. Two of the kittens died from malnutrition. The last kitten was fatally struck by a car. She lost all her babies. Then one month after that, her sister was struck in the head by some evil person passing by on the street. Unfortunately, her sister a more sociable cat and loved interacting with people. I never knew who killed her but I did discover her body on the sidewalk just outside of my parent's house. I could tell that this loss was affecting the last remaining cat so I decided that enough was enough. I have never cared for a cat before and don't have any experience with strays in the home but I needed to do something. Her life has been sad and I want her remaining years to be filled with as much love and happiness as possible. I was able to safely transport her to the vet to have a full examination and everything checked out great health wise. She is now spayed and I have brought her home to my apartment for the first time. I have read so many articles on what to expect when bringing in a feral cat for the first time, but she is different. She is hiding in dark spaces of the house, but not once has she been aggressive or defensive towards me or anyone else. In fact, throughout her first night in the home, my boyfriend and I have been able to pet her while she was in the dark space and talk to her and she didn't show any defensive signs of aggression. She even came out from the dark space and drank some water from her dish with me sitting right beside it. I wonder if this is happening because I have been knowing her and feeding her since she was a kitten. I even helped to nurse her kittens before they died and she seemed to trust me. Over the past year, I have grown to love this cat and my heart hurts for her many losses, and that is why I finally decided to bring her into my home. I hope she adjusts because I know its much more foreign than living outside all the time. I just want to keep her safe and warm and happy.