OH Chris, I am so very sorry. I've been so caught up in my own life's dramas lately that I missed this thread.
I lost my Dad in 1993, and there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about him and miss him and wish I could get some words of advice from him.
I truly don't know what to say. Just know that you and you're family are in my thoughts and prayers. Eventually the pain will lessen, but it will take time---lots and lots of time. It sounds as if you were the family "rock", as I was at my Dad's wake and funeral. Everyone leaned on me; no one seemed to realize I was in as much pain as they were. Luckily, no one turned on me or accused me of anything; your Mom is going thru her own hell right now. Someday you will mend fences with her but for now, grieve in your own way and in your own time.
You were lucky to have such a wonderful Dad---hold onto that. I think you're right about the April stroke affecting him. When my sweet, mild mannered Grandpa had a stroke his personality changed completely. Unfortunately, it happens. Keep remembering the good times you and your Dad had together, and never forget that he loved you.
I lost my Dad in 1993, and there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about him and miss him and wish I could get some words of advice from him.
I truly don't know what to say. Just know that you and you're family are in my thoughts and prayers. Eventually the pain will lessen, but it will take time---lots and lots of time. It sounds as if you were the family "rock", as I was at my Dad's wake and funeral. Everyone leaned on me; no one seemed to realize I was in as much pain as they were. Luckily, no one turned on me or accused me of anything; your Mom is going thru her own hell right now. Someday you will mend fences with her but for now, grieve in your own way and in your own time.
You were lucky to have such a wonderful Dad---hold onto that. I think you're right about the April stroke affecting him. When my sweet, mild mannered Grandpa had a stroke his personality changed completely. Unfortunately, it happens. Keep remembering the good times you and your Dad had together, and never forget that he loved you.