I lost my kitty,not only my kitty,my better feline half,lost to CRF.
He was just 3 months old when he came to me in 1997,but already thoughtful kitty.
I had a failed marriage shortly after that,which is emotional and physical disastor and I almost died.
Doctor told me I need a surgery,but I couldn't afford it,my parents didn't help it,my then so-called husband and attacker of course didn't help it.
Doctor told me,they have no way other than send me a home,(with attacker)gave me some painkiller and told me not to move.
It was winter and my body had hard time to keep temperature,(Even I was laying in Kotatsu)
Then 1 year old Su didn't leave my side.he tried to kept me warm.
After Me&Su began to live only two of us,Su became very protective.
He didn't like I make a phone call cause it ends up arguments sometime.(in the past)
Su became big boy,weighted 8kg,always sweetly kissed me and called me "Mamma".
After We had 18 years and a half almost trusting only each other,
Su was diagnosed as CRF.
I did everything we can.Su fought with his own will.(I know because when I carelessly told the vet "Is he in danger?",Su stood up suddenly like "No!".)
He declined very fast.we could celebrate his 19th birthday.
He was so weak,but still cared about me.
When he was getting oxygen at vet,I began cried.he turned to me,and looked at me.
Last day we went to the vet,we're told Su was too frail for the trip.
While I was going back home with him,he just said to me "Mamma".
We spent his last days at home.I borrowed oxygen mask.It made feel so better.
Still,when he had bad time,he wanted to hugged .
He asked me "Mama,are you ok?Are you going to be ok??".with his now-blind eyes.
Even in the condition,when I cried,Su gave me head-butt.
He passed away 14:40 Jul.15.
I have never loved other creature,cat or human,like him.
(Please understand I grew up in Japan and euthanasia was not in my world.And Su wanted to live.
please don't mention that.it hurt me even when Su was alive.I'm sorry.I respect all your choice.)
Maybe Su worried me so much to leave earth.As I'm living alone,adoption rarely come up.
But,It just come up to me shortly after Su passed.I adopt a brown tabby kitty.
Of course he is not Su,and totally different personality which makes me laugh,
Still I think Su acted as match maker.
As I always told you,be a little birdie Su,and look around wherever you want,until we meet again.
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