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On September 2, 2023, following one perineal urethrostomy and two cystotomies, RapRap finally crossed the rainbow bridge.
It's been three weeks now, and I thought I was doing fine. However, I've come to realize that I'm still struggling. It feels like I haven't fully processed my emotions and properly grieved. I worked on a video tribute, which I kept postponing for weeks. When I finally completed it, I thought I had gone through the entire grieving process.
But the truth is, I'm not doing as well as I had hoped. My sleep has been severely disrupted, with both too much and too little of it. I find myself easily exhausted, both physically and mentally. It's possible that I rushed myself to stop grieving before I'm truly ready.
My friends have been incredibly supportive, but I don't want to burden them with my sadness every time we interact. So, I've been seeking out communities where people have experienced similar losses and continue to cope with them. I'm hopeful that this is one such community.
I just want to share the beautiful and brave journey of my dear boy, a life that was tragically short but profoundly impactful. I've poured all my emotions into this video, expressing everything I wished to convey to my beloved son and friend.
Here's the link to RapRap's brief yet remarkable time on this Earth:
It would mean the world to me because it would feel like he's being honored by so many. Thank you for your support.
It's been three weeks now, and I thought I was doing fine. However, I've come to realize that I'm still struggling. It feels like I haven't fully processed my emotions and properly grieved. I worked on a video tribute, which I kept postponing for weeks. When I finally completed it, I thought I had gone through the entire grieving process.
But the truth is, I'm not doing as well as I had hoped. My sleep has been severely disrupted, with both too much and too little of it. I find myself easily exhausted, both physically and mentally. It's possible that I rushed myself to stop grieving before I'm truly ready.
My friends have been incredibly supportive, but I don't want to burden them with my sadness every time we interact. So, I've been seeking out communities where people have experienced similar losses and continue to cope with them. I'm hopeful that this is one such community.
I just want to share the beautiful and brave journey of my dear boy, a life that was tragically short but profoundly impactful. I've poured all my emotions into this video, expressing everything I wished to convey to my beloved son and friend.
Here's the link to RapRap's brief yet remarkable time on this Earth:
It would mean the world to me because it would feel like he's being honored by so many. Thank you for your support.