I am devastated right now. I just took my 4.5 year old kitty Nenya to the vet, and there's a good chance the lump I found is mammary cancer. I am so angry about this because I showed them the lump 8 months ago and let them convince me to just "wait and see" when I KNOW the odds a mammary tumor is malignant and how quickly they metastasize, but I let them talk me into waiting anyway. I knew better than this.
After going through the mammary cancer ordeal with Ember and Sweetie and still losing them after only a year even with mastectomies and chemotherapy, I just.. I just don't think I'm emotionally strong enough to go through this again.
Nenya has a surgery scheduled on Wednesday to get the tumor removed, and they will send it to pathology and I will know for sure afterwards. I don't have high hopes of it not being cancer.
I don't know what to do. I mean, I am fully willing to spend as much money and go as far into debt as I need to help her, but... is there a point? It didn't do much for Ember and Sweetie, and the year I spend trying to figure out the money thing and trying to get their appointments to work with my work schedule was the worst year of my life. I don't know how I can go through this again, and it will be more difficult than before because my current job doesn't pay as well as my old one, and the vets around here are kind of crappy -- if I want an actual oncologist, I will have to drive 1-2 hours away, which will be impossible to do with my job. I don't have enough vacation/personal days for as many days as I need to take off.
Anyway. Just really hurting right now. Thanks for reading.
After going through the mammary cancer ordeal with Ember and Sweetie and still losing them after only a year even with mastectomies and chemotherapy, I just.. I just don't think I'm emotionally strong enough to go through this again.
Nenya has a surgery scheduled on Wednesday to get the tumor removed, and they will send it to pathology and I will know for sure afterwards. I don't have high hopes of it not being cancer.
I don't know what to do. I mean, I am fully willing to spend as much money and go as far into debt as I need to help her, but... is there a point? It didn't do much for Ember and Sweetie, and the year I spend trying to figure out the money thing and trying to get their appointments to work with my work schedule was the worst year of my life. I don't know how I can go through this again, and it will be more difficult than before because my current job doesn't pay as well as my old one, and the vets around here are kind of crappy -- if I want an actual oncologist, I will have to drive 1-2 hours away, which will be impossible to do with my job. I don't have enough vacation/personal days for as many days as I need to take off.
Anyway. Just really hurting right now. Thanks for reading.