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I wanted to share the passing of my beloved Kitty, my best friend, my little child, my soul mate.
She was 20 years old, although we never knew her date of birth, only she was a newer kitten when my brother bought her from a store in the mall 20 years ago. My brother couped her up in his room and was not nice to her. He did hurt her when she meowed and other things I like to forget.
I took over caring for her in the house, I was 13, my brother 19. My room became her solace and home. My other brother also stuffed her in drawers and was not nice to her in his teens.
Needless to say she became mine. I spent everyday with her, if not I thought about her everyday wherever I was. She always looked sad, but never once bit or behaved badly.As she aged in her early and mid-late teen years she became like a dog. She would meow to say hello, greet me at the door, want to be pet and chased. She purred ALL the time.
If you couldnt find her, she was somewhere always in my room. She slept in there. I eventually put her water and food in my room since she always slept there why make her go two flights of stairs to eat and drink!
Over 20 years I only took her to the vet twice! Once because she has miscarried babies inside her (none of us knew, she was an indoor cat and the one time she got out an missing for a few hours I guess she found a mate!) And the other time to the vet was because she licked her belly off!
About a year ago or less we noticed her weight was dropping and she was drinking more water. She was very hyper at times, wanting to bet pet and would meow for us to play with her tail (that was her favourite - take a roll of wrapping paper and hit her tail - she LOVED it - always anytime forever).
Eventually she was sleeping more but sleeping flat - laying down on her side head on the floor. By December 2014 she was paper thin but everything else seemed fine! However by new years she couldnt go poop! After 2 days and then seeing her mouth open in anxiety and stress and throwing up because of how hard she was pushing and nothing coming out I panicked and took her to the vert this last new years eve at 11pm.
The doctors there were so COLD (makes me cry) and didnt even want to pick her up or hold her. They told me to pick her up. Me to hold her on the table. He was so cold. I dreaded letting them take her for tests and an enima. When I got her back after testing she was FOAMING at the mouth like a big dog does, drool hanging so thick - mouth opened, blood and poop in her carrier and her in it tormented. They also cliped her skin off on her neck by accident - I was horrified. They said "Sorry we arent professional hair removers" - WHAT?
We took her home and she acted dead.
The doc said she has hyperthyroid and possible kidney disease and heart maybe...all these MAYBES...and to take her to the vet when we can. That experience was the worst of my life.I feel like I hurt her by taking her there...but I cant think that because they did give her fluids and we knew to feed her only wet food, and to get her a laxative.
Anyways since that day she recovered BUT deteriorated. She barely left my room, barely walked around cause her breathing was so heavy and sounded like congested and clogged. She always huffed and puffed. I made her wet food total soup and thats the only thing she ate(drank) She rarely touched her water and she seemed miserable.
I spent every night waking up to feed and re feed/refill her soupy food. Spent every night waking up at every movement of breath of hers wondering if she was ok. I used warm washcloths on her to soothe her, and wipe her face gently, I mean, I was her geriatric nurse and I loved it.
By March she no longer purred, her and I laying on the floor together was our favourite, and she purred. No more. She would be excited for me to come near and pet her but it was difficult for her to breathe so i didnt want to excite her more with trying to purr.
This past Monday we called the vet and they agreed - her breathing was awful, she was paper thin and she barely moved. It was time.
I am a teacher and tried NOT to break down in front of my students.
Monday night was my last night with her, she just layed in my room on her bed (on my favourite sweatshirt) and she didnt move She loved however when I brought her wet soup food to her, she popped up her head and stood up.
She was my confidant through everything. I truly believe God sent her to me and I to her because we needed eachother. Through all the hard times with family, and how she was abused by my brother in the beginning years, We became soul mates. She lived in my room. I was everything to her and vice versa.
I did all I could for her and would kill to have her back. The hardest thing in the ENTIRE WORLD is putting her down and watching that, and her not knowing what is happening. It makes me sick to my stomach and in a state of panic thinking what I did to her. Eventhough its just crazy thoughts. No amount of last minutes with her or days with her could ever be enough even though I crave ONE more minute. The memories of that room and her face and that morning and all of those last moments crush my soul.
I dont have children and am alone at 33 years old. She was my everything, my routine, my reason to go home, my sleepless nights for years, my entire light and joy, my heart beat, my buddy.
Now its empty.
I will love and miss you forever Kitty.
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I wanted to share the passing of my beloved Kitty, my best friend, my little child, my soul mate.
She was 20 years old, although we never knew her date of birth, only she was a newer kitten when my brother bought her from a store in the mall 20 years ago. My brother couped her up in his room and was not nice to her. He did hurt her when she meowed and other things I like to forget.
I took over caring for her in the house, I was 13, my brother 19. My room became her solace and home. My other brother also stuffed her in drawers and was not nice to her in his teens.
Needless to say she became mine. I spent everyday with her, if not I thought about her everyday wherever I was. She always looked sad, but never once bit or behaved badly.As she aged in her early and mid-late teen years she became like a dog. She would meow to say hello, greet me at the door, want to be pet and chased. She purred ALL the time.
If you couldnt find her, she was somewhere always in my room. She slept in there. I eventually put her water and food in my room since she always slept there why make her go two flights of stairs to eat and drink!
Over 20 years I only took her to the vet twice! Once because she has miscarried babies inside her (none of us knew, she was an indoor cat and the one time she got out an missing for a few hours I guess she found a mate!) And the other time to the vet was because she licked her belly off!
About a year ago or less we noticed her weight was dropping and she was drinking more water. She was very hyper at times, wanting to bet pet and would meow for us to play with her tail (that was her favourite - take a roll of wrapping paper and hit her tail - she LOVED it - always anytime forever).
Eventually she was sleeping more but sleeping flat - laying down on her side head on the floor. By December 2014 she was paper thin but everything else seemed fine! However by new years she couldnt go poop! After 2 days and then seeing her mouth open in anxiety and stress and throwing up because of how hard she was pushing and nothing coming out I panicked and took her to the vert this last new years eve at 11pm.
The doctors there were so COLD (makes me cry) and didnt even want to pick her up or hold her. They told me to pick her up. Me to hold her on the table. He was so cold. I dreaded letting them take her for tests and an enima. When I got her back after testing she was FOAMING at the mouth like a big dog does, drool hanging so thick - mouth opened, blood and poop in her carrier and her in it tormented. They also cliped her skin off on her neck by accident - I was horrified. They said "Sorry we arent professional hair removers" - WHAT?
We took her home and she acted dead.
The doc said she has hyperthyroid and possible kidney disease and heart maybe...all these MAYBES...and to take her to the vet when we can. That experience was the worst of my life.I feel like I hurt her by taking her there...but I cant think that because they did give her fluids and we knew to feed her only wet food, and to get her a laxative.
Anyways since that day she recovered BUT deteriorated. She barely left my room, barely walked around cause her breathing was so heavy and sounded like congested and clogged. She always huffed and puffed. I made her wet food total soup and thats the only thing she ate(drank) She rarely touched her water and she seemed miserable.
I spent every night waking up to feed and re feed/refill her soupy food. Spent every night waking up at every movement of breath of hers wondering if she was ok. I used warm washcloths on her to soothe her, and wipe her face gently, I mean, I was her geriatric nurse and I loved it.
By March she no longer purred, her and I laying on the floor together was our favourite, and she purred. No more. She would be excited for me to come near and pet her but it was difficult for her to breathe so i didnt want to excite her more with trying to purr.
This past Monday we called the vet and they agreed - her breathing was awful, she was paper thin and she barely moved. It was time.
I am a teacher and tried NOT to break down in front of my students.
Monday night was my last night with her, she just layed in my room on her bed (on my favourite sweatshirt) and she didnt move She loved however when I brought her wet soup food to her, she popped up her head and stood up.
She was my confidant through everything. I truly believe God sent her to me and I to her because we needed eachother. Through all the hard times with family, and how she was abused by my brother in the beginning years, We became soul mates. She lived in my room. I was everything to her and vice versa.
I did all I could for her and would kill to have her back. The hardest thing in the ENTIRE WORLD is putting her down and watching that, and her not knowing what is happening. It makes me sick to my stomach and in a state of panic thinking what I did to her. Eventhough its just crazy thoughts. No amount of last minutes with her or days with her could ever be enough even though I crave ONE more minute. The memories of that room and her face and that morning and all of those last moments crush my soul.
I dont have children and am alone at 33 years old. She was my everything, my routine, my reason to go home, my sleepless nights for years, my entire light and joy, my heart beat, my buddy.
Now its empty.
I will love and miss you forever Kitty.
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