Well its my paps birthday today and well its the first one since he has been gone
we are also coming up to the anniversary of his passing, and tomarrow (monday) would be the day that he was diagnosed with cancer
for some reason yesterday all I did was stay in bed and sleep and I was real cranky and I couldn figure it out, and I knew my paps birthday was coming up soon and well here it is, me and my mom and her friend might go shopping so I do want to go do something than sleep all day again
this time last year was his last birthday party which we was something he didnt want but my grandma still had a party (my dad is one of 5, and twell everyone except 1 brother has 2-3 kids, and well my brother has 3) but it didnt really matter cause everyone always went down on birthdays anyways
but its still hard for me because my pap was really the only one I was really close to, he let me make my own decisions and didnt really judge me at all which I loved about him, and also I loved our Italian heritage
which my pap was a full blooded Italian and he always told us stories of his dad and I always remember going down there and sitting on my paps lap when I was little and any time I was down there I was always with my pap. My grams church is having a special mass for him at 8 am but we arent going the salt crew doesnt come on our street until about 8 and well I think we already got 3 more inches and its still snowing bad outside now
I know in a month its going to be real hard because he died on the 31st of march so march is going to be one of those months for me
so I know I at least have all of you guys here for support