I wasnâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t going to post this. This makes me feel like a bad mother. I just donâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t know what to do anymore. I am only posting this because I really value your advice and I am seriously approaching my wits end.
I was so angry last night I almost shook Derek. I didnâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t, but I so felt the urge – I really hate myself now. I feel like I donâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t deserve to be his mother. I actually have tears in my eyes writing this.
Derek is a very poor sleeper. He always has been. Some nights he is very good, others nights impossible. I have tried keeping him awake longer before bedtime, I have tried letting him have an extra nap. I have tried extra play time before bed and quiet time before bed. I even tried a bath before bed. It seems like no matter what we do, as soon as we go upstairs he gets lively. He could be close to falling asleep on me or even asleep on me (tried transferring him asleep), but as soon as we go upstairs he gets jumpy.
We co-sleep (although I had been trying to get him in his crib). Last night he bit me 3 times while I was trying to breast feed him. Then he just wouldnâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t settle. He tries to climb off the bed, climbs all over me and just bounces around laughing. So I decided to put him in his bed to see if he would sleep or settle there. The liveliness just got worse and he started scream because he wanted out of his crib.
I have been lucky if I have been getting 3 hours of sleep a night. That is because by the time I get him settled (can take up to 2 hours) I am so aggravated I canâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t sleep. By the time I do sleep he is up again for a feeding or crying because of his teeth. I was in tears and literally begging him last night to sleep. It doesnâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t help that I am in pain from my gall stone. I am exhausted and I canâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t tell my DH what I am going through because of his health and stress issues. He has been sleeping in the spare room because of the co-sleeping, so he is not aware of what I have been going through at night.
I feel like such a horrible person and I just donâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t know what to do.
If you feel like you have to blast me for wanting to (but not) shaking my baby – go ahead. You canâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t blast me any worse then I am blasting myself!
I was so angry last night I almost shook Derek. I didnâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t, but I so felt the urge – I really hate myself now. I feel like I donâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t deserve to be his mother. I actually have tears in my eyes writing this.
Derek is a very poor sleeper. He always has been. Some nights he is very good, others nights impossible. I have tried keeping him awake longer before bedtime, I have tried letting him have an extra nap. I have tried extra play time before bed and quiet time before bed. I even tried a bath before bed. It seems like no matter what we do, as soon as we go upstairs he gets lively. He could be close to falling asleep on me or even asleep on me (tried transferring him asleep), but as soon as we go upstairs he gets jumpy.
We co-sleep (although I had been trying to get him in his crib). Last night he bit me 3 times while I was trying to breast feed him. Then he just wouldnâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t settle. He tries to climb off the bed, climbs all over me and just bounces around laughing. So I decided to put him in his bed to see if he would sleep or settle there. The liveliness just got worse and he started scream because he wanted out of his crib.
I have been lucky if I have been getting 3 hours of sleep a night. That is because by the time I get him settled (can take up to 2 hours) I am so aggravated I canâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t sleep. By the time I do sleep he is up again for a feeding or crying because of his teeth. I was in tears and literally begging him last night to sleep. It doesnâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t help that I am in pain from my gall stone. I am exhausted and I canâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t tell my DH what I am going through because of his health and stress issues. He has been sleeping in the spare room because of the co-sleeping, so he is not aware of what I have been going through at night.
I feel like such a horrible person and I just donâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t know what to do.
If you feel like you have to blast me for wanting to (but not) shaking my baby – go ahead. You canâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t blast me any worse then I am blasting myself!