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I've been in a sad funk this last week. I can't concentrate on anything and I just want to sleep all the time. I miss Cheryl so so much. It seems to just now be hitting me that she's gone...forever.
She was a big part of my life.
Cheryl and my mom were best friends from the moment they first met--they just clicked. I guess it was their love for animals that bonded them. I got to experience some of the fun too when they started to include me in everything they did. They were so much fun. I soon started to call Cheryl Auntie Cheryl. It was so easy to love her.
Mom was diagnosed with cancer just two days after Cheryl's own mom died. And without missing a beat Cheryl took over caring for my mom. Maybe I should have been the one who put everything on hold and cared for her, I wanted to, but mom insisted she wanted only Cheryl there with her. Of course her duties included caring for all mom's dogs and cats--a job I wasn't thrilled about. And mom wanted to die at home and that must have been so stressful for Cheryl, but she never showed it.
I've been thinking about all the goodness in her heart. When it came to people she really cared about there just weren't any limits to her kindness.
And when it was Cheryl's time to leave this world she was all alone.
I knew she wasn't doing well, why didn't I cancel my trip and spend some time with her?? I was so selfish! I'll never be able to make that up to her.
Which is why I took in Turtle. It wasn't because I like cats. It was to ease a little bit of guilt.
I talk to Turtle about her mommy. And she's been curious over my depression, but she's can still do things that make me laugh through my tears.
I'm sorry for unloading all of this on you. It was stuff I needed to get off my chest. I'm hoping it will help.Thanks for listening.
She was a big part of my life.
Cheryl and my mom were best friends from the moment they first met--they just clicked. I guess it was their love for animals that bonded them. I got to experience some of the fun too when they started to include me in everything they did. They were so much fun. I soon started to call Cheryl Auntie Cheryl. It was so easy to love her.
Mom was diagnosed with cancer just two days after Cheryl's own mom died. And without missing a beat Cheryl took over caring for my mom. Maybe I should have been the one who put everything on hold and cared for her, I wanted to, but mom insisted she wanted only Cheryl there with her. Of course her duties included caring for all mom's dogs and cats--a job I wasn't thrilled about. And mom wanted to die at home and that must have been so stressful for Cheryl, but she never showed it.
I've been thinking about all the goodness in her heart. When it came to people she really cared about there just weren't any limits to her kindness.
And when it was Cheryl's time to leave this world she was all alone.
I knew she wasn't doing well, why didn't I cancel my trip and spend some time with her?? I was so selfish! I'll never be able to make that up to her.
Which is why I took in Turtle. It wasn't because I like cats. It was to ease a little bit of guilt.
I talk to Turtle about her mommy. And she's been curious over my depression, but she's can still do things that make me laugh through my tears.
I'm sorry for unloading all of this on you. It was stuff I needed to get off my chest. I'm hoping it will help.Thanks for listening.